Composition

Tagged 7

2009-01-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

Put down facts about yourself, the number of facts will be based on your age. Then tag 5 other people.

1. I HATE crustaceans, namely prawn, crab and lobsters, and cephalopods ( squid, cuttlefish and octopus ). Got that sickening smell coming from them especially when crabs are cooked fresh, and no idea why anyone would want to eat the chewy gooey thing thats a squid.

2. I enjoy running but i hate training for runs. Seems pointless when u do not have a clear target or finish line. There isnt any motivation to spur you towards your destination

3. Self proclaimed star wars fan haha

4. Enjoys a good book and a cool drink on my bed on a warm lazy afternoon.

5. Plays soccer, leeds united and real madrid supporter. Although both teams and kind of going through lean times now. Trivia: Did you know leeds got the idea for their white home kit from real madrid.

6. Bit of curiousity, loves cycling but does not own a bike. Loves soccer but do not own a ball.

7. Tend to try and formulate a reason for everything, especially to do with human behavior. Haha for example, have you all ever noticed that when you all are in a lift if everyone has more or less the same number of aquaintances in the lift then most people will either look up or look down, never straight, but if a party outnumbers the other patrons of the lift then they will look straight. Then i'll start thinking up theories about domination of one party etc over another.

8. I think i have a very mild form of obsessive compulsive disorder haha. All my shoelaces have to run in one particular order or i'll take them out and redo them.

9. I want to grow long hair at some point in my life. Just look at sergio ramos!

10. Loves a good bowl of soup. Espcially those of chicken or mushroom. I'll drink until i am bloated. Do not give me clam chowder though.

11. Willing to pay for good chips. Espcially salt and vinegar flavoured ones.

12. Will never dye my hair, asian through and through and proud of it

13. Used to be quite proficient in chinese, during my primary school era. I was in the chinese speech and drama team until my parents pulled me out in primary 6. Cant stand chinese now though, i havent wrote a single chinese character in more than a year.

14. Another quirk/ fact. Hate my shoes having dirt on them ( not the walking part lol ). If someone stepped on them and theres a small grey spot i'll clean it off before i move lol.

15. Been classified as indian ( by my j1 ogl ), malay ( my grandma ), japanese/korean ( louisa ), chinese ( i mean like PRC chinese, by i forgot who ) looking. Weird huh. I thought someone who looked malay shouldnt look korean lol.

16. Never been admitted to hospital, or had treatment at a hospital once ever since i was born :D

17. Want to keep a pet lizard in future. Those iguana kind, not those house lizards ( those are plain disgusting ).

18. Cant get enough of white. Haha u can pair something white with anything, in terms of clothing or shoes or acessories or whatever. useful. The last i counted i have 3 long sleeve t shirts in my wadrobe lol.

Moral of the story. Dont own a blog when you are a senior citizen. Try thinking up 58 facts for yourself and you get what i mean. Cheers people.

I tag the lone entity, duck, gab, yc and jc

Tagged 6

2008-12-16T01:54:00.005+08:00

Tagged by yanchao, haha he is in tekong now.

I am lazy to tag some others. Most will probably not do it anyway.

Rules:I. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. You may alter the question to fit you. ie. sex of subjects involved.II. Tag 5 people to do this quiz. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Of course, who the hell would have no secrets. Either that guy is mentally retarded ( no offence ) or plain lying.

2. Would you fall in love with a blind girl?
Yea why not. Ok so it isnt practical but whoever said falling in love was practical anyway. An article from reader's digest said it was bordering on an obsessive compulsive disorder.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
This should shock most/ some of you that know me, but i actually enjoy going to school occasionally. Haha the people in there are great. Cant says the same for the lectures.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Get a lambourghini! Buy over leeds united and drag them up to the premiership. Hmm what else, invest so i get more returns, buy everything i ever wanted, give some to dad and mom and bro to spend and everyone that was true to me and yea i'll give some to charity, it just feels right.

5. Will you die for some stranger?
Haha like what yanchao say i think i might be compelled to act in the spur of the moment ( really! ) and may end up losing my life to help some stranger but if you give me a chance to sit back and think over it. I might not. So it remains ambigious i guess. Depends on the situation too.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Since i cant pick both. I'll choose to love someone instead. Surprised? Think of it this way. If some sinister ugly person is in love with you and you just feel creeped out by it wouldnt it be like a corruption of the love the other person have of you? Love just will not feel like love in this case even if the intentions of the other half are pure. However, if you love someone, it will always feel blissful, even if you are that sinister ugly person to that person whom you love and she treats you like one. I would very much prefer the beauty of have the chance to love someone. ( Whatever happens after you are done loving someone doesnt count, for example if a couple breaks up and starts hating each other, because that would encompass what happens AFTER love, not love itself. )

7. List out your 15 favourite songs.
in no order of merit
- Love story - taylor swift
- Drink up me heaties - pirates of the caribbean at world's end
- Colours for trombone - bert appermont
- Duel of the fates - star wars episode 1
- Dolls - ayumi hamasaki
- Guilty - ayumi hamasaki
- Billie Jean - michael jackson
- Get over it - avril lavigne
- To where you are - josh groban
- Everytime we touch candlelight mix - cascada
- Red cliff soundtrack ( i dont actually have it yet haha )
- There you'll be - faith hill
- He said she said - ashley tisdale
- Boku wa kimi ni niteiru - see saw
- Can you feel the love tonight - elton john

8. If the person you secretly like turns out to be a lesbian what would you do?
I'll damn well turn her straight haha.

9. Is there anything that will make you extremely happy?
I dont think so, there isnt anything i want that badly now to warrant me getting extremely happy if i get it, might change in the future.

10. What makes you pissed off?
When i dont get what i want and when people withhold stuff from me. Like give you hints of something but do not give you the whole picture. I will get very VERY vexed inside. I cant bear not to know stuff. Haha its just me.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
No idea, the dark side clouds the future. Its scary yet there is an element of excitement about it. Cant bear to fathom the future.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My parents, brother, relatives, and friends.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
To not waste it. Live life to the fullest ( cliche but true ), be happy!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich. There is a loophole in the question because nowwhere does it mention happiness and since i would like to think i would be happy with riches, i'll choose the single life lol.

15. What is your favourite colour?
It should be quite obvious to those people i know lol. hint hint, the socks, but no, its 50-50 between white and pink.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Whats the bloody point in a relationship if you do not want to give your all? So yes i would.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Haha now why does this question... I would pick the one whom i would be the most comfortable with.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Call me petty but i would not. Forgiveable but not forgettable.

19. What CCA are you in?
Football aka soccer and house committee!

20. What type of person will you fall in love with?
Describing it wont do love justice. Because love is meant to be unexpected unpredictable so i wouldnt know who i would fall in love with would i?

Thats all people. I am NOT being emo in case SOME of you think i am haha

Standard Chartered Marathon

2008-12-16T01:24:00.002+08:00

Ok no prom picts because i am lazy. LAZY :D

Completed the standard chartered marathon last sunday with a timing of 5:55 thats 5 hours and 55 minutes. No point memtioning the seconds. Suffice to say it was one of the most mentally taxing and difficult things i have ever done. DId not train at all for it. Last time i ran was during the new balance real run. Maybe only the bike rally in june is tougher than this but in terms of a sheer mental test. This one wins hands down.

Ok firstly i seriously underestimated the ardousness of the whole thing. The 1st 20 km was smooth sailing enough. The next 10 also ok, could still run. Then when i hit the last 12 km. all of a sudden my legs start to cramp up. It was the final straw and boy oh boy i just HAD to slow down to a walk. Its agonizing really when you are walking and you can roughly see the outlines of suntec city in the distance ( the finishing line is somewhere slightly beyond that ) and then you slowly see the sights move past you. Its a real psychological challenge. You start to have thoughts of 'will i ever make it back to the finish line at this rate' and of alot of other weird stuff. Example, like how good will a cornetto taste now or what i want to eat for lunch. ( Yea they mostly revolve around food but well when you are running you do end up hungry. ) It was also painfully boring ( and painful ), so much so that i was actually yawning throughout the walking part. Your legs arent exactly hurting, just a feeling that they will cramp if pushed over the limit just abit and your soles feel as if it is slapping the concrete below you. The cushion on my adizero LTs are DEFINITELY not enough for a full marathon despite being great for 10 km sprints. Feet felt squishy after that.

Oh now since my legs arent paintful so what is the root of the pain you might ask. Well i dont know if its the distance or the energy gels i took but during the concluding 10 km of the race. My bladder just felt VERY VERY wrong. You got the urge to pee as if your bladder is bursting at the seams but when you go to the toilet. Only a feel drops of urine comes out ( I know i am grossing some of you out now but too bad its my blog :P ). Seriously its the worse feeling in the world. Imagine running your lets say 2.4 km with a full bladder and not being able to pee it out and multiply the distance by about 5 times.

Sprinted the last 1 km because, hmm its the last km and with all the spectators at the finish line cant bear to lose face by walking. Did i mention that towards the end as we were passing by the F1 pit building, ferrari was having some sort of an exhibition there, and there were like 50 ( estimate ) different models of ferrari for us to drool over. Amazing vehicles. Crossing the finish line was more of a relief than anything. You feel 'hey i actually did it, wow'. Its a sense of a justification of the belief in yourself. The finisher shirt is nice. Slightly different from last year ( and i dont mean the 2008 replacing the 2007 on the logo ), which is good because i feel that the shirt from the previous years are getting abit too common.

Thanks to gab, wh, wl, jc and gh for coming down to support. Very much appreciated. And also congrats to dong lin, kwek, chek keng, and chek keng's friend ( didnt catch his name ) for finishing this hell. Scrapping plans to do the 84 km sundown ultramarathon next year. My standard isnt there yet. Obviously i could complete it and walk the last 50 km but i would take like 24 hours? lol.

Be back next year. Target: under 5 hours

Looking forward to sundown marathon, please let there be a finisher shirt.

p.s. abit lazy to blog lately so.. erratic posting.

Prom 2008

2008-12-04T20:22:00.003+08:00

Ahh seems as if my blog died. Ok maybe it did for close to a month. Nothing much to post really. Some of the events that took place are..
- End Of A levels ( seems VERY long ago now )
- Soccer at cage
- Soccer at NYJC, i captained :D and wont 5-1 against dan's team
- Class chalet, yea i got my toenails painted pink

and lastly...

PROM 2008

Managed to assemble my prom outfit on a steal. Shoes courtesy of zean, socks mine, shirt already had them, pants got it from some random shop for 50 bucks and a white blazer for 90 from fourskin.

Caught a bus to orchad together with yang, alson and joseph from bishan. The cheapo option. Alighted at far east plaze and made our way to Hilton Singapore on foot. Arrived at 6.15 and the doors werent open yet although the ticket stated a 6pm starting time and the circular on litespeed encouraged us to come early for games and photo taking. No complains though lingered around outside the ballroom looking for familiar faces all dressed up. When I arrived, it was like 'whoa'. Seriously the girls stole the spotlight. All of them in their simmering gowns all made up and hair nicely done. Guys were mostly in blazers and shirts with tie as the dressing for a guy is a little more restricted i guess. Sat at table 18 with kwek, jc, jr, wm, wl, wh, jy, amos, hh and ck. 11 guys in 1 table. As expected the food was cleared with speed after every round. The dinner was OK. The usual chinese dinner fare, minus the shark's fin haha. $90 wont get you shark's fin i think. The host was great. Professionally done, he managed to get the school going and really liven up the atmosphere ( not that it was dead in the 1st place ). After dinner, as usual our class trademark took hold. Stoned around at the venue taking pictures and well just plain stoning.

Decided to cab to butter factory to join in the post prom festivities and our class ended up getting dispersed all over clark quay due to taxi drivers who had their own individual interpretations of clark quay. Then everyone started callling ME to find out our positions. Yang, garrett and mings joined in the calling 'fun' too. Turns out butter factory was filled to the brim and our class decided to go a bar to drink abit ( that was after alot of stoning and aimless wandering ). Shared a jug of heineken with garrett. Thats stuff is a million times better than anchor beer, that i took with garrett and zean last week. Although i would prefer something other than beer because as gab says drinking beer is tantamount to drinking oil. The calories are off the charts. Was priced out of buying other alcoholic beverages there. Me and garrett wanted to try kamikaze ( a shooter ) but by the time he was game enough to try the bar was closing and they werent accepting orders. After that we walked to the boat quay macs to get some food and chill/ stone. Caught the 1st train home and the sky was lightening up considerably by the time i reached my door.

By the way my marathon is on this sunday.. MARATHON 42.195km. The full distance and i havent been training at all for it. Pray for me people. Doing it for that nice adidas finisher shirt lol.

I promise prom pictures sometime soon, haha after i get them. Everyone is too nicely drssed up NOT to post any picts.

p.s. check class blog

US presidential elections, and more...

2008-11-05T13:43:00.002+08:00

Its victory to obama then. The news came in around 12pm today as i was watching the bbc while eating my lunch ( alternated with mythbusters ). Followed the elections only sporadically but more so in the run up to the elections. I wanted obama to win and so the results were reasonably pleasing. Mccain's concession speech was graceful, he took it on the chin, and pledged to work together and offer his support for obama while obama acknowledged mccain's efforts as well. I envy this 2 men. To have the shoulders and the want to carry the burden of responsibility for a country such as america and by extension the world is a very commendable quality. Not many ( including some elected to positions of power ) have the ability to pull this off successfully. I believe obama is the right man for america in current times. he has the steely nerve required to do what is right to deliver america from this economic gloom eventually. His speech was stirring, crossing race, age and sexual status ( yes he mentioned gays, just a word in his victpry speech ), reminding me of lee kuan yew perhaps. The conviction that he knows what he is doing and also the conviction of knowing the outcome that he will get. Best wishes to the next president of the united states from an 18 year old in singapore.

That dreaded date of the A levels has finally descended upon us. I am unprepared as ever. It seems less scary and headache inducing that i thought it will be. As with many of you, my mind is already drifting to the post exam activities that we will be doing. By the way, i have only got a month plus to spare. I am enlisting on the 7th of janurary, BMTC school 2 ( Anyone reading this the same date and school? ). So book me now!

3 papers over so far, GP, i wrote the longest and in my opinion best essay in JC life on monday. Among the questions there were very little that i could have done. Initially abit apprehensive but the points just flowed as i wrote. Hope it turns out good. Compre was forgettable. The passage seems easy enough to understand when you read it, but the questions really were difficult in that it can be interpreted in more than one way, without a hint as to what the markers want, and obviously you cannot write everything down or it will look just like garbage. I never got the hang of AQ in these 2 years, summary was done very roughly, i forgot to bring my highlighters ( because i did not bring a pencilcase ) which i normally use to highlight points, but summaries do have a habit of throwing surprises at me when i think i am doing badly for it.

Yesterday was physics 1st in the morning. Doable paper, but the lack of practice made the difference for me. Lost a couple of marks with the electric field question in section B although i knew how to do it, just that i wasnt familiar with it and so did not think of solving it that way. All eyes towards paper 2 now. Maths in the afternoon. For the 1st time in my life ( yes including O levels, but excluding primary school ). I managed to complete a maths paper with every question mostly done ( compared to prelims with 5 full questions blank? ). Whether i will a result out of this depends on paper 2 and my carelessness level, as well as whether my answers are correct. I know how to do mainly everything but i am not sure whether i did it the right way, again from the lack of practice. I thought last year's paper was harder ( no offence to those who thinks otherwise ), but by that i dont mean that this year's was easy.

Break today, chemistry tomorrow. Up till have of all the organic chem reactions and stuff seems to have left my mind already. Need to rememorise them.

Time for all of us to look forward now. Not back =)

Cheers and good luck to all

Pugnacity

2008-10-31T20:51:00.002+08:00

So how many of you thought my last post was emo? It isnt!!! Its just some thoughts thats all. Things that have been rambling around in that head of mine. Thought i'd share it with you all.

A levels is in 2 days, well thats the 'in' topic now isn't it? To be talking about exams in studies. I cant deny its importance but really if you think carefully about it, is it going to make or break your life? I choose to believe it doesnt ( and it honestly doesnt! ). I am not saying this just becasue my hopes of straight As looks abit more than impossibly far fetch now although i probably did more studying now more than any time i did in my whole short 18 years. ( Funny how just awhile ago i was using 17 years ). There isnt any point in panicking really, each of us were given choices to choose. We made our decisions and whatever consequence that accompanies it. I chose to enjoy the present, but who is to say that i wont be able to enjoy the future as well? You live for the moment, in the moment, now. Not for the hopes of 30 40 years down the road. Enjoy stoning, running, the people you have. Haha, i doubt my parents are that carefree though.

New predator colourways are available during the holiday season. Prodirectsoccer is taking bookings from tomorrow, anticipating it, not that my current pairs need replacing haha, at 300 bucks a pop. Nike also better come up with some form of silver mercurial vapors soon. Holding out for these ( if there is ) to replace my street soccer shoes with. Cant hold out any longer, the hole at the sole is getting scarily big and there is almost zero friction when it rains.

Random: I love strings, the sound of it all. The tension that can only come from a string being stretched. That rich emotive tone. It has that very penetrating sound that reaches to your bones. Violins especially. Next time any one of you listen to an orchestrarial piece ( or band ). Try picking out the double bass, they have that wonderful pompus sound, exquisite. Go listen to superman soundtrack if you want to hear the tension present in them. Specoal thanks to ykm for sending me that symphony gundam long time ago. The eighth chapter is fantastically rich with strings.

Real madrid just lost to a Segunda B2 side in the king's cup. Wth, lucky there is a return leg. Imagine arsenal losing to leeds united ( ahah! ) and you get the idea. ( dont worry, wait a couple more years and they will )

Its comical, 2 days ( as joyously mentioned by cheryl ) to A levels and i still dont own a pencil case lol.

Regrets

2008-10-25T00:18:00.003+08:00

Look at the title. Ok so to many of you i appear to be a happy person, that forever cheery person with maybe a kid for a soul. Well guess what, i am. Maybe its the physics and maths and well everything else but sometimes when you think about your life, you cannot help but feel dark. Its not a quarrel with how life has gone thus far, that i am perfectly happy, but instead of how farther ahead i could have gone if maybe i was placed into a different path. Look at it this way, i am a perfectly healthy, normal 18 year old. Thats what the problem is. Why am i like any/most other 18 year old on this planet. There is really nothing that you can say hey i am a cut above the rest, you've accomplished something. For yourself, not for the world. There is nothing but grinding out this mundane existance.

Its stupid, absolutely without a doubt to ponder on the ifs and buts, as its already done. But just imagine, all that untapped potential that all of us had. All of us wasted. Its enough to make you feel sick to the guts. For now, i've had a dabble in everything, mostly, yet i cannot say that there is truely anything which defines me, for which i am truely good at.

Take soccer for example. I started playing in sec 1. Ok so i manage to end up in the college team. I am a good player, i'm not going to be falsely modest about it. Not great or fantastic, nothing to make you swoon over but just credible enough. Yet, imagine what it could have been if maybe i started kicking a ball from 5 years of age, or if my mum didnt restrict me from joining the primary school soccer team for fear of hurting myself ( its dumb really, next time if you guys are parents and your kids wanna play just let them ). Maybe i could be some national player now, or not. Or maybe i would have found my limit is just what i am now, a college player.

Everything i did, i am stuck in this band somewhere between average and the good. Like running, i am an above average runner. Imagined if i had been training from young?. Or if i had been forced to learn the piano or violin or whatever when i was young. Perhaps i wont be that slightly above average clarinet player that i am now, something better. Or if i had actually studied, mugged my guts out for my PSLE, O levels would i have ended up in another place?. The sad thing is i was never near my limits and probably never will be near it for the rest of my life, either due to my choice or not.

You know, sometimes, there is this bit of envy when you see people at the peak of their craft. Then you wonder, maybe that person could have well been you.

New balance real run

2008-10-19T20:42:00.002+08:00

I thought army half marathon was the most challenging 'road race' that i could possibly take part in this year. Scratch that. Got blown away by today's new balance run totally. Participated in the 15km distance. Clocked the worst pacing for any race ever. Even if you take my army half timing and extrapolate backwards to the time i took for 15km, it would be much better off than my timing today. Did not really notice the time when i finished but it should be around 1hr 30/40 mins ++. This is the one time where i am not looking forward to seeing the official results.

Started of strongly, tried going at my nike human race pace, but i did not consume any energy gels this time ( it makes ALOT of difference trust me ). However quickly and steadily the heat crept up on me. As some of you know, especially my classmates haha, i perspire more than usual compared to others, so the extreme heat totally flushed out my stored of liquid. By the 2nd water point onwards i felt nauseous whenever i took water, heat exhaustion? One thing i learnt, never underestimate the morning sun. For more than half the course, there was totally no cover from the sun. Not even a single cloud in the sky. Dreadful feeling. Then there was the beach segment where u run on the soft sand parallel to the shoreline and the sun was directly above the waters. If the distance were any longer you would develope some asymetrical tan. Towards the ending point, in the last 2km, youhad to run on a very straight road, without any shelter for like 1km+. You can see the heat wave shimmering above the ground. That was how hot it was.

Bad race, plus points, i finished it, and the shirt they gave was decent. Feels very smooth haha.

Ok gone now, still feeling VERY tired even now

Graduation day

2008-10-09T23:47:00.002+08:00

2 years, how fast. I remembered lying there in my bed trying to figure out how JC life would be like on the day before orientation 1 last year. I came to nanyang because well i didnt want to work so hard. I never did and i dont want to go to a place where everyone around me is mugging their lives away. Nothing against the school, its just that the enviornment would allow me to have the JC life that i wanted myself to have. That i have been satisfactorily given.

Tomorrow is the day that i graduate. graduate on what credit? That will have to wait till next year. The last words of a chapter will be written tomorrow. Bittersweet words. I wouldnt mind if the JC system is a 3 year course ( being the norm, instead of having to retain ). It would allow us to truely taste the different flavours that JC has to offer. 2 years is way too short, but at least it was filled to the brim with experiences, never a bore. I went to JC happy, stayed happy in JC and should come out happy, although my A level results should have some bearing on that. I never was ever truely down in these 2 years. Even when studies was going against the flow, i have people who will laugh with me at our results, shrug it off and look to the future. i've met some ( not all ) of the most talented and dedicated teachers over here. Never gave up, on me, on anyone. The amount of work they put in for their students amazes me. I doubt i will ever be as dedicated at any point in my life.

Then there are all the crazy memories and antics that i will take away from school.
- 1st 3 months, all the crazy stuff we did. opening toilet doors with teacher inside, ponning 1 month worth of maths tutorials, not doing anything worthwhile and just enjoying the days as they came and went.
- Orientation 1/ 2 2007. Fun as a group, pity we didnt stay together for long. The memories will last...
- The class and its exponentially increasing rate of wackiness. Playing soccer in the midst of promos. All the runs, badmintons, basketball, soccer, ... rugby. Cage, macdonald's $2 breakfast, shopping trips, outings, too many to list, to recollect. All the sick stuff, guai-lan, name calling, sarcasm, animals, half breeds, dung the class thought up, and all the crap, husbands, wifes, yys and robots.
- LTC all the pushups, the kayaking, the squeezing in tents, the reflections and most importantly the people. Ector, we were the most 'high' bunch of people in the camp.
- Promos, the relief and the celebrations when 100% promoted was flashed across the screen and the individual subject standings thereafter.
- Orientation 1 2008. The laughs, the cheerings, sentosa, the wonderful og, ogl and olympians. The hoarse voices, the tired but happy faces, the aching legs.
- House exco camp, lessons learnt, got our act together, made friends, made an impression
- A division soccer, the passing football that nanyang played. The dark horse, the agony of losing, the thrill of winning. Scoring that last gasp equaliser, being somewhat a hero for once. The self justification.

There are many many more, do a list after the A levels. So the people i've met in nanyang, perhaps we dont know each other, but well we recognise and acknowledge the existance of each others. Cheers to you

Parious circumstance

2008-10-06T16:08:00.005+08:00

All of you readers, ready all together now... 'SIGHHH' .. ok done? good. At this period, all of you would have some reason to sigh. Whether at how badly ( u think ) your promos/ end of year examinations are going to turn out, or for the countdown to the yet to come examinations. Everyone is swinging into panic or depression mood. all except me. Ok, been emphasizing this point for a long time already so should not bore my readers.

This is a completely random entry.
Could not get to sleep last night. Probably due to the apples and apple juice i took before sleeping. Was thinking about the places in Singapore that i want to go to just soak in the sights and atmosphere, when i have the time. Reasons vary for each. Either its due to its novelty or some previous connections with the place.

- Southern ridges trail, from mount faber all the way to NUS and west coast park. I like west coast, although having been there only a couple of times in my life. It has a quiet simple feel about it, unlike east coast or pasir ris beach tainted with the persence of too many people. The southern ridges because its one of the few places in singapore which allows you to being in the midst of a place, rather than worrying about a destination or other mundane stuff. Its a mix of city presence in the buildings that can be seen and a bit of nature thrown in. Allows you to lose yourself for awhile

- Kayak to pulau ubin/ chek jawa. Did that at leadership training camp last year. The place is the awesomest place in the coastal waters of singapore i feel that i can visit with my capabilities ( dont mention some place which u have to hire a boat and scuba dive. That is not within my scope ). while i was there, i dont know which tide it was but the seabed came to with a few centimeters of the kayak's hull for long long stretches spreading out from the coast of ubin, before gently breaking the surface in plains of sandbanks that barely graze the surface of the water. You can actually step out and just walk around seemingly right in the middle of the water. The sand there is also surprisingly fine and clean despite being sitiuated close to a busy waterway. Last year i did not have the chance to truely savour the place because i came close to dying while paddling my twin kayak, due to a seasick partner. Not her fault though haha. Carried 2 person for most of the journey. With a single seater and lighter kayak this time, hoping to repeat and better the experience. Garrett, Chris, naomi, Eunice listening?

- Visit the western side of singapore. Walk around abit, The bukit timah area seems interesting, so does jurong. Go back to the arcade in jurong to try the dinosaur arcade game. Saw many sights along the pandan area while cycling there in june for bike rally ( then, my legs havent given up on me yet ). There are actually a few relatively larged sized bridges ( in Singapore's context ) there. Should be able to enjoy them more if you arent struggling to inch you bike over that rise in the bridge haha.

- Clark quay and up the singapore river. Nice place where you get to truely absorb what the night has to offer. ( i dont mean nightlife ). There is just something about that place which draws me. The way its structured perhaps? You have those shophouses lining the river which spoils your eyes for the variety of sights. Urban malls like central further upriver. The bridges, the other people visitng the place ( this time i dont mind the people, because they give the place its life ). Then there is the cbd area with its modern appeal. Again random, i dont know why but i always liked seeing a small coffee joint of a shop open in the middle of nowwhere in the city at night.

I really cannot turn on the computer if not i'll get hooked on like forever. Trying hard to abstain from it for my studies sake so you wont be seeing must posts. If i log on the comp, i'll end up watching random comedy videos ( life is a joke ), little britain, russell peters or trailers for upcoming movies on quicktime. If i really run out of stuff to do, then i will loiter around wikipedia or wookiepedia ( star wars ) reading random stuff. See just wasted dunno how many minutes typing this. Could do with a few good reads after my A levels. ( Give me a book now and i'll get hooked on it just like the comp )

Got randomly wacked today by a girl for staring at the ... floor? lol hazel is going nuts

Guys lets go get the F1 walkabout tickets next year.

Done

Tagged 5

2008-10-06T15:52:00.003+08:00

Interesting one taggd on me by kwek. At a risk of sounding very egoistic/arrogant, here goes. ( Disclaimer, this is what i think of myself, whether you think the same way or not does not concern me )

Pick your birth month.
→ Change the font to red for anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five that best apply to you. ( instead of bolding i shall change the colour to yellow, bolding doesnt really work here )
→ Copy to your blog, livejournal, xanga, wordpress.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.

JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

AUGUST:Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive ( unless you are refering to my nose haha ) but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Quoting kwek 'Please do not ask me why there isn't November on the list'.

Haha, and the tagged ones are .. ( damn kwek for using up all my potential tags from class ) ... Shermaine, Louisa, Feiyang ( if hes reading this ), John and Xinyi.

Me

2008-09-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'll show you miracles

Thursday friday saturday out

2008-09-21T19:44:00.002+08:00

Prelims is past, history. Hopefully the last prelim exams i will EVER take for the rest of my life. So its 3-4 days of R & R before i really start studying for my A levels. I dont have a good feeling about the results.

Thursday after our last paper. The entire class ( minus huixin sohee and hazel... WHY DIDNT YOU ALL COME!!! haha joking then for once we'll have a 100% attendance ) went for dinner at suntec. Everyone was in their school uniform lol, Imagine 22 beige forms walking in one big group. They even walked 2 by 2 lol ( i'm sure you all didnt notice ). initially the plan called for dinner at crystal jade, but then switched to NYDC. The baked pasta there is nice. No idea what jc was protesting about. The class mostly ordered baked pasta, except for hh who had to be special and order is 'tears in heaven' pasta. it was 1/2 times more expensive than my baked pasta, yet its portion was also 1/2 times smaller. See the irony of the name. His wallet should be tearing over dinner. After dinner, went to fountain of wealth to slack abit, and took pictures. It was pretty humid didnt stay for long. The girls took every chance they can find to have a seat haha and cheryl wouldnt stop whining. After that some of the guys went to watch 'mirrors' ( including me ) while the rest went home. For a horror movie well, it is decently scary, but more along the cheap thrills kind of eerieness. Gore was plenty though burning people, slit throats and people ripping their own jaw apart.. until you can see the tongue hanging out... ok wont gross out people here. Its M 18 for a reason. Walked to city hall mrt station after the movie at around 11. That was when we saw the F1 lighting system in its full grandeur ( they left it on ). It really was bright, though the beam was directly focused on the roads only so it didnt have the effect of totally illuminating the whole area. 1 more week.

Woke up early on friday morning to go to the cage. An indoor street soccer facility using articifial turf. ( we booked it at 100+ bucks for 4 hours ). Our class guys ( record turnout again for this kind of event ) plus kweks friends. Everyone had a jolly good time. Damn only managed 2 while duck put in 6. Even ppl like ykm and wjc was well ferocious in hunting you down when you have the ball. Played for 4 hours from 9am to 1pm, then changed and left for lunch at leisure park kallang. Everybody was dead by then. I dont even have the will to run to chase balls lol. Kwek, gh, jc and others all cramped up. Of all places we ate at the ... foodcourt -_- there. Still hungry after that so we shifted to kfc where some of us had food. Me and jr checked out the arcade nxt door. Played some jurassic park 3 game there. A shooter game using a shortgun. Required you to step out of the screen to avoid getting bitten. Fun but we 2 must have looked like idiots la. Then played world combat. Me and jr 1st. Then me, jc, yc, and jc 4 person together. Still got massacred by the 3rd stage XP. Jr played tekken ( spelling? ). Nearly got owned by a kangaroo, got owned by a girl in the end haha. Went home took bus 16 passed by the city area again. The lights were still blazing in their full glory at 3pm!!!! in the afternoons. They'd better be doing something constructive with the lights or its a superb wastage of electricity. It finally arrived !!! Went to thompson post office to collect it with yc. It had like 5 layers of pakaging. Now you know how global warming came about. Glad that its in 1 piece haha.

Stoned my saturday afternoon away. Ok not quite because i woke at 1. Would have slept later if not for a hh call. Went to games convention at suntec with yang and later met with gab. They had an awesome range of new games for you to play. The force unleashed, spore, fifa 2009 ( Kwek I BEAT YOU TO PLAYING IT HAHA ). Might get the force unleashed for that wii in my grandma's house. Imagine wielding a lightsabre with that wii remote. So cool!. Met with the guys ( jr, gab, john, wh, gh, hh ) for dinner ( not including hh ). Jr wolfed down a foot long subway. Sick greedy big chested thing. Went to zouk after that. Managed to somehow beat the system and smuggled our 2 underaged kayakers in. Pictures up when they upload it.

Today nothing much. Woke up, grandma house. Chalked up maximum points in wii tennis. Won the toughest opponent there. Had a tap for a nose the entire day. Not stopping yet. Chelsea Man Utd later, relishing ronaldo in action again. Think he stinks for rejecting the best club in the world but well he does have the skills after all. Hope he doesnt fizzle out. Badminton tomorrow with class people ( i am like seeing them every single day la! in addition to school ). Should i go run later?

till ....

Great, wonderful

2008-09-12T22:28:00.003+08:00

So we have covered all the subjects except econs. Own personal feeling, physics today was easier as compared to maths and chem thus far. That is my PERSONAL feeling about things so yea, if you have been topping the class usually for chem and maths, do not start pointing fingers at me. This is also not meant to be a reflection of my results yea. Got news from my friend that its 40 more days ( i havent been following haha ). Ok after prelims, i am putting it up here on record now. I AM FREAKING GOING TO START STUDYING!, from the week after the prelim exam onwards. Starting with my freaking gp. At the current rate, i will end up getting Ds and Cs. I know i am smart ( screw me for being arrogant i dont care ). i BELIEVE that i am intelligent. Its the willpower to put in the effort to achieve what you want that scares me. Results will be what you are judged on, hell if i dont get them.

Kwek's got the class ( most of the guys that are online anyway ) hooked on russell peters youtube videos. They are hilariously funny. wasted 3 hours so far in total on them. The pain in my foot hasnt gone away in the sense that, well its ok when i am sitting there not standing on my foot. LIke now when i am typing this. Starts to hurt after like a 5 minute walk, or when playing badminton (duh!).

For all star wars fans out there, check out 'the force unleashed' new video game to be out on xbox 360, ps3 and wii. Used digital molecular matter technology, same thing halo 3 used i think to realistically model the physics of the game. Graphics and gameplay seems to be good. Might get one for that wii at grandma's house. Imagine wielding a virtual lightsabre and watching your actions reflected on the screen. Price should be steep though.

Ok, talk about feelings now. I hate it when people start judging you not on what you have done or anything but based upon their perception and stuff. Its utterly stupid. All you readers, tell me you dont get irritated when someone accusing you of being a slacker when you are mugging hard, how would you feel? ( Not that i am mugging hard ). Then sometimes while you try your best to be accomodating and stuff towards others especially your 'friends', when they are not having a great day. Well not that its a drag or whatever, but yea you WANT to be accomodating because well you do care about people, your friends, your relations. But ( Never start a sentence with but but screw it ) even so well when you get shit's worth of appreciation. Isnt that just great? Any of you wanna unload all your crap on me, yea why not? But dont for a moment think that everything is about yourself, i have my own problems, i have my own feelings yea. Or maybe yup after crapping on me you go well, at least you are there for me to crap on, thanks. I dont give a shit, but if its like 'get lost' to me after getting crapped on. Heck pisses me off. No relation between human beings should be only bout one person trying to please another. Yes i am overbearing sometimes but too bad ITS ME, my life. Everyone out there who thinks i am guai lan, i WONT change it. ( Kwek's level is higher though ). My 2 cents worth. Btw i am NOT emoing

Wonderful, ruined my night. I swear i will run to selatar reservior tomorrow night to vent some steam.

AHHHH

2008-09-10T14:17:00.003+08:00

I did the worst chem paper today, in my long sad history of bad chem papers ( adapted it from somewhere ). Like boom! 1 whole question out of 4 undone. The only time i did that was in secondary school for geography - i got an A1 still :P but thats not the point - plus alot of blanks everywhere. Feels alot worse than mid years, because mid years those that i didnt know how to do at least i have a vague idea of teacher going through it in class or something but i wasnt paying attention and thus couldnt answer. This time, look at question 1 ( for those of u taking chem in NYJC ). Like what the hell was it talking about!

I still cant find that adidas sunglasses i want in Singapore, It better not cost more than 200 bucks or i will bug my dad to get me a credit card and buy it online. Its only SG$180 ++ online.

My leg is really acting weird, it hurts when i am walking, but the hurting does not feel like it is due to the walking. At home it dont seem so bad, maybe because i am either on my seat, bed or the couch. Starts acting up whenever i go to school, no joke. Its doesnt seem to be the shoes either. Have it while wearing my slippers to badminton the other day. Argh! be gone.

Some fresh air

2008-09-09T19:39:00.004+08:00

Prelims are upon us, woe betide me. the september holidays was over fast. The good: it actually felt like a REAL holiday, the bad: it felt like a REAL holiday. So not much studying done then, although i finally know what is going on in vectors, but i didnt have time to do the part in yesterday's paper. Figure whatever you want haha. Chem tomorrow.

I finally got my nike gym sack for finishing in the top 200 of the human race last friday. Had to go all the way to newton to collect it from a small office. It is small, but highly usable. Used it for street soccer on sunday and it could fit my clothing + my street soccer shoes pretty well ( my crumpler cant even do that ). Went to mos burger ( By the way, their corn soup and minestrone soup is real nice, give it a try ) at toa payoh after getting the sack to meet with kwek, wh, yc and john to 'study'. Ended up watching wall-e. Good show, havent watched an animated one in months. Sad to say this, but it trashes star wars the clone wars flat, go watch it if u choosing between the 2. Played badminton yesterday evening with kwek, wl, jieyang, wh and john after kwek and wh went all the way to novena to sign up for the new balance real run ( but nothing got done ). For goodness sake, can someone remind that this is like the PRELIMS, last exam before the A levels, my own light heartedness surprises me sometimes. Hope it wont be my downfall.

There is this 100km walk thing that is scheduled to take place in december. Me, kwek, gab and wh pondering over it. Sounds fun. Date is 2 weeks after my 42km. Woots.

Wishlist of stuff i want ( cos i want alot of stuff and i am bored now haha ). Feel free to get any of them for me for christmas
1) Adidas shades
2) New pair of chucks
3) Another pair of pink socks
4) Crumpler ( current one is ancient )
5) The 8.1 megapixel sony ericsson C905 phone that is coming up.
6) Ipod casing
7) New keyboard
8) Braun buffel wallet
9) A pair of dark coloured bermudas/shorts/whatever u call that
10) Nike mercurial vapor IV soccer boots
Put up pictures when i have time after the prelims haha. List seem pertty superficial lol.

Already crapping up grand schemes for post prelim activities with the guys. Kweks 'the cage' soccer date with the class ( or amos friends ).

Some random bit of stuff.

Dad threw away that mickey mouse clock that has been hanging above my doorway since dunno when. With the ears jutting out and stuff. It had to go because, it stopped and its battery 'juice' was leaking. So now i have no clock in my room. Feels bare and weird haha.

Still cant believe cheryl wore that dress then OMG O_O. Careful, you are at risk of being **** by hh now haha.

CERN ( go ykm's blog if u wanna know what it stands for, he just did a blog post recently on it ) officially starts it LHC, that is large hadron collider for you today, way cool!.

Someone said i looked cheena -_-"

3rd day of hurting and i still cant figure out what is causing it.

Gotta scram!

Nike plus human race 10k

2008-09-01T12:33:00.005+08:00

An event where 1,000,000 people around the world run at the same time for a charitable course (and also for the atmosphere and the fun of running of course haha ). 1st time i did a race in the late afternoons instead of morning. Nice experience a pity it was marred by some glaring problems. More on that later.

Somehow managed to persuade most of my class's guys to sign up and they gamely went for the 10 kilometers, cant say the same for the girls though, haiz. Well all of them did completed the race in a very decent time despite this being some of their virgin long distance event haha. Sure they found it a refreshing experience. So congrats and well done to wh, kwek, gh, jc, ykm, mos, hh, yc, gab and jr. ( missed anyone out? ). Also many thanks to cheryl and huijie for coming down and helping with the bags, made it a smoother experience for us. Appreciated.

Plus points 1st, the weather was good, sun stayed behind the clouds most of the time. The rain cleared up just in time. Running through clark quay was also a good experience, the narrow streets ( lucky my plan of overtaking and clearing the crowds fast at the start before slowing down later on to avoid congestion worked, if not would not have enjoyed this section as much, heard from kwek that there was a bottleneck there when he came through ) together with the alfresco dining on both sides of the path and the people there really gave it a 'street race' feel. The route marshalls too did their part to keep us on track.

Completed it in 46 minutes and 47 seconds, personal best but grrr still cannot hit 45. humidity was a killer, haha shirt was soaked even before i started running. The 2 packets of energy gel i spammed before clearly worked, legs wasnt tired all through the race, although i was panting towards the end, i usually dont pant. Starting to like 10km races, gives u the thrill and the speed without the monotony of a 21km where its just endurance towawrds the end, no speed.

My standings in Singapore, 149 not bad. Didnt know i had such a nice race number lol, different from the one printed on my shirt, pity this time there isnt any certificate. For the record i was ranked 12267 out of all the runners in the world. ( 1,000,000? )

Ok and now the grouses. The race was poorly organised in a sense. Race pack collection was the worse ever. i took 4-5 darn hours waiting in a queue ( ok well that was the collective time the class waited ) to get my race pack. Baggage deposit was limited to the 1st 5000 runners only, didnt chance it thanks to cheryl and huijie. Those people at the race pack collection was clueless, told me red tag was for those from 40 to 30 mins when the website stated that it was for those with a targetted finishing time of below 50 mins. Not that it mattered on the race day itself, everyone was a mess, lucky i managed to squeeze pretty close to the start line, but there were like red tag people and even green tag people around me. I took blue ( those form 50 min to 1hr and 10 ). Whatever happened to organisation. The route was was well congested especially towards the start. Having only 1 lane to run at one stage? overtaking was close to impossible. Class people mentioned that they got elbowed there. The musical acts and zones around the route was sporadic, was not the full blown carnival thingy that i expected.

Worse of all, the website mentioned that top 200 finishers will get a human race gym bag. BUT as can be seen i am way below the 200 mark and i still see no sign of my gym bag, what the hell is going on. Emailing them.

The luck worked btw, thanks haha

Work, studies beckons, till next time

Divine intervention

2008-08-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

Ah hah, boring, boring, boooooring week. Alas the class - me, jr, gh, jc, ykm, gab and yc went to comex tech fair at suntec after our morning gp paper. Congrats jr joined us for the 1st time. Good workout, although it was relatively crowd free, we did get a glimpse into the crowd conditions that will most probably be present on the weekends. Was literally sardined when passing through certain areas. Got my new earphones, decent quality. As with class tradition, any visit to suntec/ city area must be accompanied with a topman visit. Gab bought shades ( again ) while jr and 1 both got shirts, owe him money because i did not anticipate coming.

Hamstring is hurting after yesterday's soccer game, my 1st in 2, 3 weeks. No idea why. Pain got worse after the shopping spree. Maybe too much standing. I seem to always have some part of me hurting some time or another. Why is that so. Thursdays isnt good man, last thursday got wacked in the nose and today, leg is hurting. Got another game scheduled on saturday if all goes well. If my leg does not heal by then maybe i wont go. Dont wanna risk my nike 10km timing. Saving 2 packs of energy gel for that race haha. Tomorrow the class people participating are wearing the nike human race tee shirt to school. Going to be cool. For your information, i was NOT the instigator of this idea, although i show my support for it haha.

On a sadder note, my new adizero lt is stained brown!!!! after its 1st competitive debut for the army half marathon, where we had to walk in a mud pit that is the padang after crossing the finish line. I swear the mud was at least an inch deep. There goes pristine whiteness. Timing dropped 2 minutes this time, from 1:53 in standard chartered last year to 1:55 this time round.

For the 1st time i cared not of myself, what a pity haha

Grant me strength, for i am weak
grant me hope to keep me going
grant my wishes to realise my dreams
grant me miracles, for they spur me
grant me myself back.

August nights, august days

2008-08-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

Fine week. School is getting boring, thank goodness it ends this week. Lectures have been reduced to doing and going through papers ( sleeping ), and tutorials well somewhat like a group consultation slot. It is getting pointless, lame and totally draggy. No offence to the teachers though, they are a great bunch of people. Mr pun unleashed his classic quick witted *artillery barrage* retort on that poor photographer when we re took our class pictures, pity that guy. Exams are within touching distance now, and i feel so unprepared and vulnerable. Starting my studies soon (tomorrow?) Wish me luck.

Played touch rugby on thurday with the class. Participated in inter house. This is like the 'real' version not the modified one we played during the sports carnival. Although we went out in the 1st round, we had a great time, despite some initial misgivings. Lost the 1st game 2-0, all the intricate tactics we thought of fell apart. Regrouped for the 2nd game and managed to win it 4-2 by just keep pushing forward and ignoring any tactics. Against a stronger team too ( they had ruggers ). Lost the final game 2-1 ( i had 2 freaking nice tries disqualified, i DID touchdown the ball with my hands in contact but oh well, referee's decision is final and its not easy for them too ). Went out in the end. At 1st we only thought the 1st team in the group will qualify, but turned out it was the top 2, for 2 different categories so we lost out in the end haha. During the course of the competition, got hit on my nose towards the end of the 1st game, bled alot. 1st time in my life got nosebleed, and its not like the girls there are hot. Dont feel any pain though, everyone was probably more worried for me than i did for myself haha, thinking bad, maybe a stream of blood trailing down your nose does look scary.

Saturday, yesterday, 23rd august. Sweet 18. Thanks.

Ran army half marathon today. 21km. Energy gel really works. 1st 10km was a breeze, minimal fatigue. After hitting the marina barrage area, then all the muscle tightness, sore legs start to set in. The ground is damn uneven, and you have to constantly hope around mud puddles because it rained last night. Feeling primed up for the nike 10km next week, put it up here now, i WANT a sub 50 timing, and no one is going to stop me from getting it, i'll crawl if i have to. Got a free ticket to the post race concert, anyone wanna go?. After the army half, queued for 4 hours, 4 FREAKING HOURS!! to collect my race pack. Lucky some guys from class already started queueing early, so i and the rest of the army half runners did not start totally from the back. took turns to eat lunch. The rain started and stopped x3 and poured while we were queueing. Had thai food for lunch, as that was the most edible and reasonable priced food we could find at liang court. Nike seriously have to get their act together, if not i've got a bad feeling about next week's run. The race pack isnt bad though, nike water bottle ( 1 litre! not those small ones ), nike shirt. Ok for the 27 bucks we paid, but NOT worth the queueing time. Legs actually ached ( not boasting or being funny or whatever, stating a fact ) more from queueing than the half marathon, after i sufficiently recovered lah. So sick of 100 plus now.

Gone, no quotes today, come back some other time haha. Tired

ITS MY DAY ! :)

2008-08-23T23:37:00.001+08:00

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2008-08-20T23:31:00.004+08:00

Grass no matter how green, will turn yellow and die if left alone.

Idiosyncrasy

2008-08-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Why celebrate my birthday if it is just a matter of obligation or formality and just to 'get it over and done with'. I dont think i deserve that, i would rather not have it at all if you all find it such a chore. I am not being shallow or materialistic but it seemed like friendship just went out the window. Since it is done already then well, i wouldnt be as thick skin as to ask for another one right. Just dont pull it on someone else again, because the feeling sucks big time. I'm sure he (BN) feels the same way about it.

( Dont worry, pigs or anyone else that is thinking 'isit me?' its most probably not you )

Tired tired

2008-08-13T20:54:00.003+08:00

Firstly, congrats to those class people who ran the 5 times of 400 meters just now. Although we had a resting time of about 15 minutes per rounds, still well done and good job. Try again soon haha ( yay ran under 75 seconds for all my rounds =), personal best, although rested alot but didnt take water ). Class is getting nuttier and nuttier, 5 of us just signed up for inter class touch rugby on next thursday. We are supposed to be J2s mind you, mugging our life to be, but then again life is there to be enjoyed. Between me and weihan we probably joined every single inter house/class event that we are able to take part in recently lol. Still pondering whether to accept ykm's offer of joining dragon house for the debates next week. If i do go, i'll dread to think what Mrs Lim will have to say.

For inter house soccer last friday. Rats came in 4th ( out of 16 teams ) but considering we were never even in the running for any placing before the competition, its not a bad position. Great job to the team. Well done yea, breezed through our group stages won 2 drew 1 conceded 0. Owned the quarter finals as well 3-0 ( unexpectedly, the opponents were strong on paper ). End up losing the semis and 3rd/4th placing match. A moment of lapse in concentration killed us in both the games. well, everyone was probably tired out by then, and the team was more like the walking wounded by then. We didnt have any subs too for the final game because jing han our keeper had to leave for his band performance ( not your fault haha, u did stay till your limits already ). I got scrapped on both my knees, got kicked in the toe, but my teammates got it alot worse. weihan got scrapped 10 times worse than me, eugene came into the game with a semi sprained ankle and daniel got his ankles knocked and also headbutted in his face. So you see, 4th is an achievement already. When daniel became keeper, there wasnt anyone left to feed off me so tried to chiong my way through but sadly the goals didnt come. Overall scored 1 and assisted 2. Good effort guys. Special thanks to the class for going late to econs and coming down after econs to support us all the way. Thanks lots ^_^.

I still have no idea what i have to do for chemistery tomorrow. Olympics is interesting. Watching sports like weightlifting and diving which i never thought of watching before. The standards there is superhuman. Till next time then. Oh, i really need my new vapours soon. The holes on the sole of my current pair are getting too wide for comfort.

star

If wishes were wings, pigs would fly - Wheel of Time VI: p.233

Glorified dismay

2008-08-07T20:30:00.004+08:00

Long weekends are hear =). Although there is bound to be homework, i would not mind some extra free time. Nanyang badminton open on wednesday. Skipped chem remedial for it, and mrs lim did not bother to check in the end whether we did our work today ( suppose to finish a full paper ), lucky. Lost in the 1st round to weihan and jieyang 22-20. Forced the tie into a duce. Much better than when we played them in practice. John ( my partner ) was great lol. Sad i lost the last 2 points, but no team from our class had any substantial hope in the competition anyway. Good fight though.

Skipped maths and gp remedials today to go with some of the class guys to watch 'the mummy 3'. Decent movie, paid 6 bucks for it only. Nice graphics and maybe some comic moments, but the plot was rushed and abit off. Does not really make sense. Brandon fraser was a joy to watch as usual but pity there isnt any rachel weisz. Think she is a damn good sophisticated actress. The replacement looks alot less good, and acting skills are a notch down too.

There is inter house futsal 5 on 5 tournament tomorrow. Team has decent qualities, jing han, eugene peter, wei han, qing wei and daniel are the others in the team. The draw has been kind to us, putting us in group D, supposedly the easiest among the groups. Not too many school team players in there, only know of chang and chun besides myself. Hope can get a good result haha. I'll be at my best tomorrow, just watch. Out goes the headless chicken.

You have no idea

A good friend will bail you out of jail and lecture you about how you messed up. A great friend will be sitting right next to you laughing about it saying "damn, we really screwed up!" - unknown

=)

2008-08-01T22:37:00.005+08:00

Its friday night everyone, hello there. Dont face the usual work pressures this week, for once my maths tutorials are done somewhat on time. Just chem stuff and econs test on tuesday to worry about ( should i bother studying? ). Next week is going to be hectic, before the long weekend kicks in. Joined eugene peter's team for the futsal tournament on friday after school ( after the national day celebration ). Pairing up with john for the badminton tourney on wednesday. Hope to have better luck than last year, where me and jem drew the eventual champions in the 1st round, consisted a school team player and an ex school team player. Held them to 12-11, then it became 21-12. Out in the 1st round.

Class or isit maybe gab, me, guohao and jc abit crazy today. Started singing muneru valliba ( spelling ) after physics. Nutters haha. The class forum is a nice idea btw, love the 4-word game haha, but need to make sure people actually visit that thing. Forgot who today in class didnt even know it existed. Start of teh chinese 7th month, people start burning stuff again. Going to irritate my sensitive throat/ nose. Mom asked me to turn on the air con, but it is tantamount to turning on a tap on my nose haha. The white vapours are supposedly comming out next week ( according to http://www.prodirectsoccer.com/ ) but dont know if they are going to be available in singapore as well.

Speaking of soccer boots, something interesting i found regarding how the colour of you soccer boots represents what kind of player are you, apparently done by a leading sports psychologist. Listed the white ( my field shoes: white predator powerswerve ) and the silver ( my street soccer mercurial vapours, well it was silver, now it looks more like some silvery white, grey, brown, black thingy ) for your reading pleasure. You all be the judge. Accurate? haha.

The Maestro: White Boots
Wandering into the Boot Room comes The Maestro, his white boots lain out ready to be slipped on, left before right, in an orderly fashion. In many societies white represents purity and light and The Maestro, a name he gave himself without any prompting from his tabloid ghost writer, is a player who shines brightly in any arena.
He is oozing talent and class, and has everything except sweat inducing work rate, but the gaffer has given him a special dispensation to not track back, so he says. He strolls around the pitch and thinks with his feet, which is better than trying to use his brain; and he always finds time on the ball. He has good instincts and he knows he is good, but he doesn’t mind other people reminding him. When he demands the ball he expects to get it and guarantees to use it diligently with the minimum of effort. White should be worn by players with class, who can give us a few footballing lessons, however expensive. He will be our white knight, rescuing us in times of trouble.

The Headless Chicken: Silver Boots
Silver has the lustre of moonlight, it offers light and balance, and the footballer who wears silver boots will bring stability to the team, if they let him. They may be suspicious of his shiny footwear. He has speed and pace to burn, but they think he does not always use it wisely. Unkindly known as a headless chicken by his merciless team-mates as he runs on everlasting nervous energy. Passing and distribution can be erratic but aesthetically pleasing. On their day, they are unstoppable. But when is their day?

Credits: www.footy-boots.com , the rest of the descriptions can be found here http://www.footy-boots.com/colour-football-boots-4673/

I wish, i wish, i wish

If everything is imperfect in this imperfect world, love is most perfect in its perfect imperfection - Gunnar Björnstrand

May hope ring true

2008-07-28T00:32:00.004+08:00

Weekend! ok it is officially over when i am typing this but really really glad that the weekends are here after a long week in school. Went to changi village for dinner today, nice affordable food downed 2.5 bowls of rice, although brother ate more. Friendly boss too. The trip there made me realised something. Lately, i've taken to falling asleep in my dad's car whenever the journey takes a slightly longer duration ( e.g. bishan to pasir ris ). Slept on the way there and on the way back. Is this a sign that i am not getting enough sleep? Should be. I could cut down on all my slackiness and procastinating and frivolous time wasting and get my work done to sleep early, but then life would be a dead bore wouldnt it. Ah well, see if i still keep on falling asleep in my dad's car ( like every morning on the way to school, not tomorrow though, we start late ), not forgetting tutorials and lectures. More of the latter though.

A levels is soo close and my maths is still in shit. I reckon ( not being arrogant or boasting here ) i can settle my lack of knowledge in physics and chemistry if i utilise a couple of days or a week for some full time studying closer to the exams, but not for maths. Considering i know close to nuts for vectors, complex numbers, integration and recurrance. Maths NEEDS practice, lots and lots of them. Not one of my strong points. Even skipped the maths test on vectors and complex numbers last week. Btw, thanks to yc and ykm for settle up the class forum. Will inject some lively crap in there if i am free ^_^

Brazil under-23s playing Singapore today evening. Channel 5 better show it or i'll start boycotting it. The match wasnt in the program lineup for today in the lifestyle section of the straits times today. I need to do more running, but worried about the after effects. Everytime after i ran, i'll be dead exhausted mentally and physically, and everytime i ran i went home and did 0 schoolwork, but i like the thrill of finishing a good long hard 10km or more. Something random here, Garrett mentioned that during his AJ leadership camp last year, they walked from AJ to sembawang beach ( or park? ). Vaguely remember visiting that place when i was young. It is like one of the most peaceful and quiet places in Singapore i think. Hope to visit there maybe after the A levels, anybody interested? feels weird to go there alone. Oh and west coast park too. The memories of LTC lingers. I seriously feel that us young people and over visiting East Coast, Pasir Ris beach or even sentosa, ignoring the hidden sites of serenity like those mentioned above. Maybe i could organise a small trek from mount faber to NUS via the newly opened ( this year ) southern ridges trail, but its a wee bit congested. That will be all, my nice warm bed beckons.

hope stays

-We can't change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.
-I'll take an earnest person over a hip person any day, because hip is short term, earnest is long term
-Better to fail spectacularly than do something mediocre
- Randy Pausch, Last Lecture, as quoted by the newpaper

Hopeless confusion

2008-07-24T21:37:00.005+08:00

Weekly roundup. Had a soccer game on saturday morning kindly organised by mings, against enson's team. Fun game, no pressure. drew 3-3 but won on penalties. All 3 of our goals conceded were abit to the soft side. Finally joe managed to finish my cross off with a header that went into a goal, or should it be 'finally, my cross managed to end up getting put into the net by someone heading in'. i scored my penalty too :D, although it somehow dragged until everyone in our team had a chance to take it. Benedict pulled off 3 saves in a roll, and mings fittingly won the game. The touch ruggers was probably simmering at us by then because we were hogging up the field and depriving them of it for their testimonial game.

Nothing much eventful for the week, john joined me for running on tuesday, haha keep on training dude, with your body, you are capable of alot more. Ran 11.2k on the school track. Weirdly both my foot ( not legs ) went numb after around 5km, couldnt feel anything and just pounded on. Is it supposed to mean something?

Signed up for Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2008 yesterday, for the full 42.195km distance because i am finally 18. Kwek signed up too. hey guys prepare to visit me in hospital that day alrights. Nike run registration closed too. So for the remaining 8 people from our class who have been procastinating and not sign up, TOO BAD. There goes my evil plans for making the nike run shirt our new class shirt for 2008. Brazil arrived yesterday too, U-16 tickets sold out, ( had a scheme.... ) good grief, most likely staying at home and watch.

Got back my result slip today ( note, this following content are not meant to suan anyone or be a fail pretender or whatever ) passed everything =). Had quadruple Es and double Ds. Everything except maths is above cohort average. One weird trend, my GP including this mid years have been stuck at the 85-87% band constantly for the past 4 tests/ exams i remembered from and including the promos, got to improve. Surprisingly annis was our class only representative for the awards ( good progress award ) for the mid year exams, congrats. Our class was overall 4th or 5th ( cant remember ) in level rankings. To quote kwek ( modified abit ) " people like us are responsible for the passing rate, notthe distinction rate, that one leave to top 4 ". Derby county is officially 12th from bottom haha. Newcastle is slightly above relegation zone. ooo scary. remains to be seen if it can be sustained.

Can pigs fly? Monsters need chances

The heart has its reason of which reason knows nothing - Pascal

Cherry pickings

2008-07-18T23:29:00.003+08:00

I am so darn tired and i still have to contend with this. Extremely irritated at some people now. If you ever give someone your word, you are expected to be held to it. You do not back out at the last instant because of some frivolous reason. The irony that it was not my responsibility in the 1st place. If i didnt have my contacts, we will all be screwed yea. Needs to be more organised. When i talk to someone, i treat them as an individual, i do not care if you have a bf/gf or ur mom beside you or whatever, but you do not involve them in this. It is a personal matter, do not be an idiot. Grr, havent been so pissed in a long time. I dont mean sadness, being disappointed or 'emo'. I refer to pure unadulterated anger. Could tear someone apart now.

I need to improve, its not fast enough. Top 200, gonna push my body through hell, if anything goes wrong, so be it.

I still have to wake up early tomorrow morning, haiz, where is the justice in this.

my chance is not within my means, alone

( too tired to source for quotes )

It will find a way

2008-07-18T00:07:00.006+08:00

NS checkup today, got PES A, certified fit for everything, and they didnt find any irregularities with me so shall continue to go and do all those crazy stuff that me and my classmates have signed up for. It was quite efficient really, but maybe some people could have been friendlier? ( mentioning this because they asked us to fill in a survey form at practically every station ). Oh and my hair will look horrid in my NS identification card. Been busy lately so pardon the tardy updates. Surprisingly jc was found to have some heart condition, so he is given PES D status pending further checks, scary. A couple of us went to vivo after that to watch 'the dark knight'. Nice show ( although i still prefer red cliff ) where the characters try to play around with people's psychology, interesting, but in terms of pure action cant beat the 1st movie. So 2 great movies in which the characters are intellectually stimulating in 1 week.

As for the joker, yea masterful performance but i think all the accolates that the critiques have been pouring into him are abit over-exaggerated, but bless heath ledger, somewhere in heaven now, managed to really bring out the maniac from the villian.

Saw real madrids 08-09 jersey at the vivo adidas store, retailing for $99. Looks great, finally they got rid of those purple stripes from last season and replaced them with black ones. Added a collar too. If i get a sudden winfall, that is one of the 1st on my agenda, haha although i currently need like 2 pair of shorts.. and a NEW crumpler. Shall test out the adizeros tomorrow.

please, let hope ring true

He stopped, for saying the truth aloud was unendurable. He knew now why this tranquil life seemed like an after-life or a dream unreal. It was because that he knew in his heart that reality was empty: without life or warmth or colour sound: without meaning. There were no heights or depths. All this lovely play of form and light and colour on the sea and in the eyes of men, was no more than that: a playing of illusions on the shallow void - Ursula K. Le Guin, The Farthest Shore

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2008-07-13T00:32:00.002+08:00

Went out today with Kel, nick, yang, jaren, gab and yang to celeb yang's bday. Went to intercontinental hotel at bugis junction to have lunch/ high tea. Cost me 35 bucks, argh big BIG hole in my wallet. Probably burnt right through my pocket as well. Nevertheless it was fun, and full of crap. Their cheese cakes and ebiko tastes great. i think their ebiko trashes sakae haha. Did not really stuff myself this time, so 35 bucks was abit of a waste. Their tea isnt bad too. The staff there were immaculate, and VERY VERY professional/ observant. Pleasant experience dining there. I asked for a spoon because my spoon was cleared together with my plate, and the waitress seeing that i was having soup brought me a soup spoon, promptly received our desert spoons and teas with a smile when we asked too.

Went arcade at bugis after that, lost at stage 1 for time crisis 4 ( on 1 coin ) despite pairing with kel. We both lost. 1st time this has happened in a long long time. Lack practice, used to be able to complete the game in 2 coins. After that, all 6 of us went to some machine where u throw balls at the screen and are suposed to hit some of the graphics. Tons of fun haha, 6 guys spamming stuff at a console, managed to get a 2nd place for highscore. Yang named us as chibaii -_-".

Went to watch red cliff at bishan with yang, nick, kel and stella. Like finally, that yang brought his gf along ( wahhaha so i got my wish in the end ). Nice show, its a chinese epic movie. Itwas entralling watching the characters pit their mental wits against each other, and the battle scenes were bloody and great action. The scenery was gorgeous too. Ancient china never looked more beautiful. There are a few commedy moments thrown in too with good effect, mainly revolving around 'zhuge liang' haha, watch it and you'll know what i mean. give it a 4 out of 5. Disagree with the straits times review that said the scenes between the 2 battles were a bore. It developes the story fuller and it is those moments which makes this film more than just a hack and slash movie. Watch it, it is good ( 1st time i am promoting a chinese movie lol ). Part 2 out at the end of the year. Its soundtrack is great too!

A wanting, but not a reaping

How a person masters his fate is more important than what his fate is - Wilhelm von Humboldt

Losing

2008-07-12T01:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I lose myself

and i dont know what i want

even if i do want something

i lose the ability to get it

it is a lingering absence

played louder all the more by faint whispers

why?

Today's yesterday

2008-07-09T18:31:00.002+08:00

I got straight Es for my H2s, and E also ( for the bloody 1st time in my life in JC ) for my compre on the dot. For the H2s, neutral about my grades, it isnt really that bad, physics and chem are above cohort average and i passed maths for the 1st time this year. Then again it isnt really good either. Do i really want to be an average achiever when A levels comes round, i guess not. Some ex student that came to give a short talk yesterday scored DUU for her H2s during her mid years and yet still managed to get into SMU law school. There is more than hope, there is a possibility, a chance for me. As for GP, its going crazily downhill. Something is wrong somewhere, and i WILL find out and knock it back into shape.

After experiencing the 1st day of the extended timetable, and also my earliest day at 5pm, it was sleep inducing, was sleeping through chem, boring stuff going through papers. I'll have to somehow survive 5 days and more of these. Someone out there, start praying for me. Recently in school ( meaning yesterday and today ) i cant seem to get full on whatever i eat during my breaks. Had a bowl of noodles yesterday and a pau, not full. Had noodles today and pau again ( different noodles ) also not full. Dont want to seem greedy by ordering 2 bowls or another plate of rice haha. The portions looks to be shrinking, my stomache can feel it and it wants more.

Something way cool read 'my paper'' online version today and found out that the RSAF is considering buying up to 100 F-35 lightning 2 when it becomes available. Awesome airplane, trashes the F-15s and F-16s. If the black knights acrobatics team switches over to F-35s then their sequences could potentially be way cooler, due to the increased capability of the F-35. Although i cant help feeling that raptors are still more advanced than the F-35. I could be wrong.

Took issue with the answers for one of the physics mcq question. Apparently the annual migration of birds are NOT circular motion. I got the question correct but felt that 2 answers are possible. If you take into the account that the earth is a sphere then if a bird migrates from one part to another it should follow a curved path with the acceleration directed to the centre of the earth. The term ' constant velocity ' in the question also does not contradict this point. Velocity is relative to the observer. In this case, the velocity can be said to be constant relative to an observer following the curvature of the earth but that does not say that the bird may not be performing circular motion when viewed from just about anywhere else in the universe. As for the distance, "Some Bar-tailed Godwits have the longest non-stop flight of any migrant, flying 11,000 km to their New Zealand non-breeding areas (BTO News 258: 3, 2005).' as quoted from wikipedia. Compare this to the earth, which has a circumference of approximately 40,000km, the bird would have travelled the length of more than a quadrant of the earth's circumference, making circular motion having an appreciable effect on the bird's path. If the bird travelled along a straight line path it would have covered about 9000km, compare this with the 11,000km mentioned above, and also note the word 'non stop'. So this should be circular motion.

A monument to my sins

The touchstone of goodness is to own one's defeat even to inferiors - Valluvar Tirukkural: 786

Woozy

2008-07-07T00:46:00.001+08:00

Alcohol makes you think stuff, stuff that you never thought possible, or stuff that you wished were possible. Gosh, why oh why

Emphathisment

2008-07-06T02:06:00.003+08:00

( not sure if the title is a proper word )

Yea, jc was right, havent slept 8 hours in any day at all since the mid years ended. Badminton with the class guys on friday. Fun enthusiastic ( to the best of their abilities ) bunch of people, not forgetting guai lan. Sweated it out from 11 to 2. Won some, lost some haha. Someone remind me to go play with caro and her dad after the A levels, then my standards will go up. Ahh speaking of which. Looking forward to sakae on monday, ages since i've been there. Last time was with class after promos. Compare this with sec 4 where sakae was visited at a frequency of almost once per month lol. Had soccer this morning with amos friend. Abit screwed up haha ( not refering to amos friends ). My form is GONE, horrendous. Something sucked it out of me, got that very irritated tugging feeling, maybe i am irritated at myself. My street vapors which are hideously vandalised over the course of usage now has a 'mouth' the rubber sole and the shoe is close to seperating. I need new shoes, and new running shoes too. Tore a hole in them on wednesday. 2nd pair of adizer ruined within 2 years. Well done. Going to cost.

New timetable is out. Ultimate suckiness, including remedials, the earliest day i have is 5, and i have 3 days ending at 6.15pm, and i am confirm down for the remedials given my performance. Something random, the moon looks crisp tonight. Grandma's house tomorrow, ubin shelved. Will not have my 8 hours again, soccer tomorrow at 10. Off for bed.

Show a sign
flash a beam of hope
saturate an empty shell
glimmering shimmering madness

Doubt, indeed, is the disease of this inquisitive, restless age. It is the price we pay for our advanced intelligence and civilization. It is the dim night of our resplendent day. But as the most beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith which springs from conflict is often the strongest and the best. - Robert Turnbull

Nonsensical rubbish

2008-07-03T01:16:00.003+08:00

Ok its over. Its been feeling over since tuesday anyway, to quote ykm 'i dont even think you started' haha, sums it up. Ms Yau messaged the class sayign paper 1 was badly done and wants us to redo, foreshadowing further slaughter perhaps. I did not put in a struggle, just went meekly into the night. Not a good effort, never an enough effort. Ahh, but the hopelessness of it all is galvanising, it spurs beacons of hope, visions of glory and the courage to go and take what is yours.

Went home after school and basketball, then went out with the usual gang from class ( amos, yc, ykm, kwek, gab, jc, hh, wh, wl - gh ). 1st went to meet jc, ykm, yc and amos at mind's cafe as they did not play basketball and had a round of mona lisa game with them, finished 1st runner up. Not bad for a 1st try. Went over to cathay at 6 and as usual everyone was late together ( the people at mind's cafe anticipated the lateness of the group that is arriving and so we went at 6 instead of the agreed 5.30 ). Went to adidas, possibly found a replacement for the adizer that i tore a small hole in today. Heart pain sia. Just so happens that it is the one that jc wants. Think i am getting the one with slack and silver stripes and him the blue, although i prefer if there are brighter colours. Played Euro 2008 on the xbox 360 console there, 1st with jc ( of course win, what can you expect lol ) then with kwek, lost to him 4-3 after extra time. 2 trends continued. 1) Our matches always have mimimum of 3 goals on at least one side. 2) I LOST TO HIM BY 1 GOAL AGAIN, lost count of the number of times already, i think a few more, will hit double digits, nevermind, tomorrow i shall try to extract revenge.

Went to watch hancock. A nice movie, real nice front part but it tapered down abit. 1st movie in a long long time. The twist was weird to say the least, it is jarring to flow of the film. Anyway, got a few comedy moments especially the parts about putting things inside something else. Will not be vulgar here haha. Suits our class's theme/ atmosphere/ behavior. Its 1 and a half hours long, abit too short for my liking but we paid 6 bucks so no complaints. Debated for awhile ( nothing ever gets done in 0713 without a minimum of a couple of minutes worth of debates and arguments ), then decided upon crystal jade. 1st time i suggested chinese food haha. The beef brisket noodles are nice, and the fried toufu with salt and pepper is awesome, crisp on the outside and jelly like on the inside. After that, stoned around deciding on the events for the next couple of days before going home at 11, early, not making use of the night.

Ok, i'll vanish

To affect the quality of the day, that is the highest of arts. Every man is tasked to make his life, even in its details, worthy of the contemplation of his most elevated and critical hour. - Henry David Thoreau

Peace, quiet

2008-07-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

Sunset

Pitch black

Live for the night

It echoes your heart

Freedom, but not from yourself

flow through me

When you look me in your eyes

2008-06-29T02:15:00.000+08:00

Bored out of my skins the last 2 days. Was bored on friday night, was bored just now in the afternoon, am bored now. Haiz, should be studying by right, but cant resist a little procastinating. Exams end on wednesday, got thurs fri sat sun off. dont know what i'll do with the time. Hopefully popping by ubin with some people on sunday, kills time and get me in touch with my inner nature haha. Aw crap, feeling so *blank* now. Its not a censored word, just that its blank. Maybe i'll find one of the days and go run the entire MacRitchie forest trails for the entire day. That ought to kill time. Will take the results of the Mid Years when they come, no point thinking bout them now haha. I've got bets with 2 people that i'll score lower than them. At least gain something out of this debacle can i?.

Its 2, the night is still yet the wind is breezing through my open window slit, contradictory? perhaps not. Everything just seems so quiet, peaceful outside from what i can see outside my window. Some developer tore up the soccer field before my window, not that i've played there in awhile, to build some condominium that costs around 1.1 mil per unit, parents went to showflat. That small patch of bishan park looks so quiescent, as if stuck in a realm of its own. I wanna be there. I want to experience the night. Let the night permeate through my body. It invokes your senses. Or does it numb them? Have you all ever wondered, what a feelble existance we all are out there among all the stars u see at night. What is the point really, for something to be created, for something to have hopes, dreams, aspirations, passion, love, compassion, morality and yet be put out in the end. ( thats my view ). In the words of a friend, maybe i am too pensive. Haha, i like it that way.

For the record, i am not being emo, i hate being labeled as such. Just searching for inner peace.

Was it ever? Have you ever?

My warning to you is this—do not rely on your companions to compensate for your weaknesses in skill. There will be times they will not be there to help you when needed. - Darth Traya, Knights of the Old Republic

Tagged 3

2008-06-27T01:35:00.023+08:00

Xinyi asked so yup here goes...

a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.

1. the age you’ll be on your next birthday:

2. a place you’d like to travel to:

3. your favourite place:

4. your favourite food:
5. your favourite animal:
6. your favourite color:
7. your favourite piece of clothing:

8. your favourite song:

9. your favourite tv show:

10. first name of your significant other / crush:

11. the town in which you live in:

12. your screen name / nickname:
13. your first job:

14. your dream job:

15. a bad habit you have:
16. your worst fear:

17. the one thing you’d like to do before you die:

18. the first thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000: ( Dont think its enough lol )
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question. [ If you wanna then just do lol ]

2008-06-27T01:07:00.002+08:00

What i feel about this, is really hard to describe. It is simply like questioning, what is right and wrong in this world? to this, why do we fear certain things, like breaking a glass even though we know that no serious consequences will happen from it...sometimes when we feel that something needs to be done, or that certain signs show us the way...we should just do it. sometimes when i feel like walking in a direction i did not plan to, or to feel like i need to wander around aimlessly for a while, i do it because i feel it is necessary to the big plan of the world.

After all if you read mitch albom's "the five people in heaven" you would realise that our actions affect many people, even people we don't know...heck, even Judas had his part to play in the death and resurrection of Christ. though we usually see him as the bad guy, if he did not do what he did Christ would not have died on the cross and there would be no Christianity.

Even a simple act like wanting to run through the rain may result in many ripples in the events of this world, and we should just go ahead with stuff that we feel like doing, without too much unnecessary doubt and fear. After all, the most the girl will get is a cold, no?

So when you feel like doing something that doesn't follow your plans and your world view, just do it anyway. You'll feel freer and more satisfied with life by giving in instead of trying to resist it just because someone or society tells us its not right. We're not talking about murder or running around the street naked; its usually simple stuff. :)

Courtesy of Feiyang, his comment on that story 2 posts back

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2008-06-24T20:38:00.007+08:00

BOOM! blown away by maths paper. Dead. paper 2 will be easier, because i cant do any worse than paper 1 EVER haha. Ok chem tomorrow. Short short post to prevent the rot from accumulating, stinks too much. Played a demo of ace combat 6 with yanchao at J8 yesterday. The graphics are worth drooling over on the x box 360. Kwek, go persuade your brother to let me play leh, and anyone have any plans for the Euro finals, i dont wanna be stuck at home watching it haha? Anyway, go listen to the song 'look me in the eyes' by joe jonas feat. vanessa anne hudgens, its awesome, really. Thanks to gab.

Aint these just soo cool.

300+ bucks, sponser? haha dont think i'll need it soon anw, my predators are still doing fine.

A passing remembered

You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me. Look inside yourself, Simba. You are more than what you have become. You must take your place in the Circle of Life. - Mufusa, The Lion King

Run through the rain

2008-06-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

Found this online, nice story. Not one of those that you get spammed by the same story every few weeks. Cant really figure out the morals still.

She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful, brown haired, freckled-faced image of innocence. Her mom looked like someone from the Walton's or a moment captured by Norman Rockwell. Not that she was old-fashioned. Her brown hair was ear length with enough curl to appear natural. She had on a pair of tan shorts and light blue knit shirt. Her sneakers were white with a blue trim. She looked like a mom.
It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the tops of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. Drains in the nearby parking lot were filled to capacity and some were blocked so that huge puddles laked around parked cars. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Walmart. We waited, some patiently, others aggravated because nature messed up their hurried day.
I am always mesmerized by rain fall. I get lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world.
Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child come pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day. Her voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in.
"Mom, let's run through the rain," she said. "What?" Mom asked. "Let's run through the rain!" she repeated. "No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied. This young child waited about another minute and repeated her statement. "Mom. Let's run through the rain." "We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said. "No we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm. "This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?" "Don't you remember? When you were talking to daddy about his cancer, you said, "If God can get us through this, He can get us through anything!"
The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear, you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say.
Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.
"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If God lets us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.
Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few believers who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.
Perhaps inspired by their faith and trust. I want to believe that somewhere down the road in life, mom will find herself reflecting back on moments they spent together, captured like pictures in the scrapbook of her cherished memories.
Maybe when she watches proudly as her daughter graduates. Or as her daddy walks her down the aisle on her wedding day. She will laugh again. Her heart will beat a little faster. Her smile will tell the world they love each other.
But only two people will share that precious moment when they ran through the rain believing that God would get them through. And, yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.

Fiasco

2008-06-20T16:36:00.003+08:00

Putting this down here before i forget. Read in today's straits times that the saucony passion run 10km distance was actually more like 11.5km. STUPIDITY. After the race i told hh that my timing should be 40 something + minutes based on my tiredness level, but when the results came out i was 53. So i guess i am right after all. i DID complete 10km within 50 minutes. 53 minus lets say 2 minutes per round = 47 minutes. The organisers suck, should have planned a better route

Calamitous

2008-06-18T00:29:00.002+08:00

Packed my room. If any of you have visited my house before, you wont notice any changes, only moved the worksheets around. Before, there was a pile of worksheets around 30cm high, now its even distributed around my room in the 2 pidgeonholed shelf that i have. Hope that makes my note finding task easier. Took me 3 hours, my back nearly broke. Maths for the mid years is going to be a gonner, no practice, no reading of notes and 5 days left to the paper ( its the 1st paper right guys? or am i wrong, i dont have the timetable haha ). Could not resist the lure of football. Accepted amos's invitation to play for his team on thursday for some game, hope we will win.

Got to adjust my sleeping patterns before school reopens or i will just die in school. If i do not have to wake up early for some reason, they normal waking time is at noon. Make that the earliest waking time. Probably due to 3am sleeping times ( and i was not even watching the euros ). If i have something on, for example the last 2 days where i had running in school ( came down on both days but i only ran on monday ) in the morning, waking time was 7am but sleeping time was still 2am/3am. Not enough sleep lol. I will not pretend that i am studying up till 3am or have ever studied until that late before, in my life but i do not see how my 3am sleeping time can be cut back especially if there is the last minute chionging ( to cover the entire mid years topic ) that is bound to take place on the eve of the papers.

Today met wh, kwek, yc and weiliang after their run in school. While they were resting saw wjc coming to school. Wth come school study never call us, together with gab and hazel. Comeon man, ps fellow slacker club member, you good haha. Decided upon long john's silver for breakfast, but by the time we reached the toa payoh outlet, the usual post gym hangout place for 0713 ( not including me, been there like once? ) it was 11.05am and breakfast was over T_T. Ate the usual stuff, then we somehow managed to convince ourselves ( or was it me lol ) to go to the arcade. So a originally intended to be study session for the 4 of them turned into LJS crapping + arcade session. As usual wh pwned datona, i think all the records there are his. I managed a 2nd in one of the races, and thats as high as you can possibly go with wh around, but was mostly 3rd or 4th out of 5. Played time crisis, wha too long never play liao, must ask kel go arcade, died twice at stage 1, got pwned by wh haha, he died 1st time at stage one and went to stage 3 on the 2nd try on 1 credit. After that i went home, while they went mos burger to study/ drink soup. Their corn soup is awesome seriously, must try the minestrone soup one day.

Thanks to hazel for agreeing to bring down her differential equation and integration tutorial/notes down to school tomorrow. Mine are mostly empty. Would have died twice over if not for her so thanks man.

Wishing upon stars

Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away - Adam Hitchens, Hitch

Faith, Hope, Charity, Determination

2008-06-13T21:50:00.005+08:00

Havent touched my books at all over the past 2 days. ( Today and yesterday ). I am so going to die haha. Ahh running is getting into my blood now, ironically i have only took part in 2 races so far. standard chartered singapore marathon (21km) last year and passionrun 2008 (10km) last week. I like the freedom, the feel of having the wind in your hair and in your face. The continous rythm that your leg go through during the process is painful yet soothing really. Its liberating running on the streets, totally different than running on the track. I think my aerobic capacity ( must thank band and soccer training ) is good enough but i need to get those muscles up to shape. I almost never pant while running long distance ( 2.4 does not count, i HATE 2.4 its hell, pain beyond measure ), but my legs get all sorts of cramp or aches after the run. Did some calculations after the passionrun results were out. You know what? If i had been in the open category instead of the junior, i would have been in the top 3.8% INSTEAD of the 13% which i am currently in now, WHY didnt i go for open. A whole lineup of events coming up. Should be taking part in these 3, must get dad to sponser.

- Nike Human Race (10km)
- Army Half Marathon (21km)
- Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon (42km) [No idea how i am going to complete it currently haha ]
The nike and standard chartered marathon have great shirts :D

Considering this 3..
- Mizuno Wave Run
- New Balance Real Run 2008
- Lion City Marathon
Mizuno, hmm if yc insists on going, haha i'll go, but no medals no cert and no t shirt abit not worth the money. New balance still no news this on this year's event yet. Lion city marathon, if its EVER gets started haha then maybe i'll join.

Ok nuff bout running, can someone ask me out to play soccer?, street of field or anything, i dont even mind the beach lol. Havent touched the ball since 4 days ago, if garrett and co doesnt play this sunday, then i think i'll go for 2 weeks in a row without any soccer. I WANNA KICK A BALL.

yc edited the post haha ps.
for ykm's benefit, i DID do my studies beforehand, and i did not regret my purchase haha it aint that bad.

Sometimes life's unfair, but then no one said it was fair in the 1st place. To hell with equality and fairness, i WILL do things MY way

Ok let u all in on another secret. I hate warm salads

Remember Red. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies - The Shawshank Redemption

Nebulous Boredom

2008-06-09T19:47:00.005+08:00

Weekends, why does it seem no different from the weekdays of the holidays? Ok that was random. Been stoning at home alot recently, still no willpower to go and digest the stuff tested for the mid years. Where should i start... lets backtrack to last wednesday.

Class fishing cum bbq at huijie's house!. Well i didnt go for the fishing. By a stroke of luck, the class boarded the bus i was on while it was doing a 3 point turn to get out of punggol end. Why do i get the feeling that i am going to be ps-ed ( been getting alot of these recently ) if i did not so coincidently happen to be on that bus. Went over to huijie's house and i had a packet of fries for lunch ( poor chap ) haha no joking because i ate at home. Went to NTUC Fairprice at rivervale mall to get the bbq stuff, hh was his usual confusing contradicting 'anyhow wack' self and as a result we had to return to Fairprice to exchange some stuff we bought because they were not needed. Went to huijie's condo, was bored so started playing with the flower crab that they caught during fishing, sadly it died before the bbq was over. R.I.P. So did all the other fishes except 2. Played badminton with some kids at the court, and got owned >.< by a primary school kid. He was GOOD man, definately must be coached. Me and gab doubles no match against he and his friend. Played until it was too dark ( there was no lights ) then went to eat the food ( ok i'll be honest, i didnt help much :D, except for fanning the charcoal every now and then ). Consumed 8 susauges that night. Had fun messing around with the fire. Kwek dumped close to half the box of firestarters in lol. The super strong lazer pointer brought by ykm was fun too. Had lots of crappy, without a care in the world fun at the playground while some of the other class guys went to play bball. Rediscovered my childhood lol. Was worming on the rides, swinging and much more. Went home around 1130 caught 88 home with huixin, yy, ykm, yc and wh. ykm was so worried he was going to miss his stop lol. Oh before that hh dumped the surviving fishes.. into the drain -_-. Had fun, hope to have somemore gathering next time. Photos do visit kwek's ( junhong ) or ykm ( kheng meng )'s blogs, lazy to get and post here.

Saturday nothing much, bored to tears at home. Went out in the evening with nic gab ( not the 0713 gab ) and yang. Long time never go out together liao, no including yang's performance, to watch some breakdance competition. Haha local standards paled in comparison to those judges (who showed off their moves as an intro ) from overseas.

Woke up at 5.30am to go for passion run 2008 10km at east coast. Dad fetched, picked up janelle and hh along the way. Our flag off time was at 8am. Sun's up, hot, not nice. I took 53 mins flat, and came in 26th for the junior U-19 category. I think i am at the top 12% ( dropped from 9% at standard chartered) . Should have gone for open category. Irony, the 10th place timing for open category was 50+ mins while junior's was 49+ mins. Won a timex watch as the 4th prize in the lucky draw, and lo and behold, hh got 3rd prize lol. Damn lucky, but if i had a choice, i'll want the lucky draw from the bike rally instead, the prizes are much better ( crumpler... ), the odds for winning this draw is way lower than bike rally's due to the number of people taking part. i think passion run have up to 10 times more, but we and hh still somehow managed to win. Eh janelle dont be sad, next year come run and try again. For the record, my number was 7572 and hh's was 7570.

Christopher wasnt there so i found someone else as my pacer. Haha she is a small little sec 2 girl from cedar. Million thanks to debbi ( knew her from my kayaking ). All of you who want to find someone to worship in running. Go worship her. She is hardcore. I caught up with her at the 5km mark. Didnt realise it was her, then she was like 'are you albert' then recognise liao. So we took turns pacing each other till the last 100 meters or so when i sprinted. She came in 2nd for the under 19 category and u know what is amazing? 1) she is only 14 2) she stands only up to my shoulders ( i am not exactly tall ). 3) she only lost to me by a few seconds 4) SHE WENT FOR THE SAAB CITY DUATHLON BEFORE SHE CAME FOR THE PASSION RUN ON THE SAME DAY and still can get 2nd. Doubt she'll ever read this but thanks debbi, for if i did not find someone to pace, i would have lagged alot. [ this paragraph is for the viewing pleasure of chris, naomi, garrett and eunice ]

Played soccer with benedict's friend's today at st wilfreds. Got license to dribble and do all my stuff ^_^. Played from 11am to 1pm like right smack at noon. Legs super aching now.

Its was never truer
Tell you all a secret, skunks are nice smelling creatures =)

Some good we all can do; and if we do all that is in our power, however little that power may be, we have performed our part, and may be as near perfection as those whose influence extends over kingdoms, and whose good actions are felt and applauded by thousands - Jane Bowdler On Christian Perfection

Tagged 2

2008-06-05T19:18:00.007+08:00

Here goes, tagged by Chris

1)When was the last time you had so much fun?
I'll pick that marathon shopping trip last friday. Damn crappy, damn tiring, damn wrong and damn fun haha. Class bbq yesterday was fun too.

2)What would you do if your bf/gf betrayed you?
interesting. Nothing, cos she is not deserving of you doing anything for her in the 1st place cos she betrayed you. Besides, if she could conceive of betraying you, then it was probably never gonna work out in the 1st place, so why waste your time.

3)Who are you thinking of now?
Actually not really thinking of anyone now, but since this question requires a 'who' alright, the 1st person that came to my mind was, hmm classified. ( If i say some guys name, Kwek, Gab etc will say i'm gay, if i say some girls name, you all will think i have a new gf/crush, but yea i AM thinking of someone, lol i'll buy anyone of you a bar of chocs if u can get it right on 1st guess )

4)If given another chance,would you turn back time?
No, then i wouldnt be who i am, and i am loving who i am right now. Live life with no regrets, even if it doesnt seem so rosy, its all part of the experience.

5)Would you rather be rich and miserable or poor but happy?
Chliche, poor but happy, haha honest.

6)What do you want most now?
Get straight As for A levels ( excluding chinese ). Sadly the effort is not matching the desire.

7)What song do you like listening to most currently?
My All - Ayumi Hamasaki

8)Money or wisdom?
Wisdom, for wisdom means having the ability to get the best out of life.

9)Name friends who are caring for you.
If you are reading this, then i know you care. I mean it :D. Others, too long to mention

10)What is your greatest dreams and ambitions now?
Being a military fighter pilot would be nice.

11)Which place do you badly wanna go now?
Japan!!! Although got to learn japanese 1st. Alternatively, i dont mind being the 1st to mars.

12)How would vent your frustrations?
Street soccer court + ball/ Running/ just stoning alone somewhere peaceful

13)Do you have any enemies?
Nope dont think so. Well people MIGHT see me as an enemy but i dont think i see anyone out there who can really be classified as such. Let me know if you think otherwise haha.

14)Last place you visited
Not counting the toilet? Ok yesterday, Huijie's house

15)If the person you have special feelings for feels the same way towards you,what would you do?
That would be the perfect best case optimistic scenario wouldnt it. Do nothing, cos you already have everything going for you, everything will just fall into place. Haha, if only it was so

Ok done. Anyone of you out there who are bored studying or just plain bored haha try this, kills time.

Tired

2008-06-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

Ran my 1st 10km in almost 1/2 a year today. Legs and mind quite numb now. Kwek called me at around 4 asking me to head down to school because they were running. There was a bit of a rain but thankfully we waited awhile and it let up. Completed it in 52+ mins. Thanks to weihan and gab and kwek for timing and waiting. Looks like i need to shave 7 minutes off my timing in 5 days to hit my target? haha. Maybe the 2 400 meter sprints i did before that affected it a bit ( 65 and 75 seconds respectively, again dropped ). Wth did i sign up for the men's junior category. Grrr, should have gone of men's open. My category's starting time is 8.30!!! Its blazing hot. U know the monday assembly dripping with sweat feeling. Going to increase my timing definitely. The studs on my adizer are also worn out :(. Just go run lor.

Now, comments on the Singapore - Uzbekistan match yesterday. Its shocking, and utterly disgraceful. Singapore's defence was missing for almost the whole game. Precious was slow to track back, and responsible for 1 of the goal when he did not check the run of the Uzbek player. Baihakki and Mustafic's communication was pathetic, went for the same player countless times and they behaved if they were non existant, allowing the Uzbeks to dribble past them at will. Lionel Lewis, major disappointment. You would expect a norminated Asian Player of the Year to play better and at least pull of some saves to deny the opposition, even if the defence was leaking badly. That is what top class keepers like Cech and Casillas do, but no, he conceded a goal from a corner ( granted the ball had a nice swerve on it ). I had not seen any keeper let in one from a corner yet until today. The midfield ceded control of the centre of teh park to the Uzbeks, allowing them a springboard to launch countless attacks. If any part of the Singapore team were to come up with any credit, i think it would be the strike force, managing 3 goals, despite not having their 1st choice pairing of Indra with Alam Shah available. Good grief, most goals conceded by the national team ever at the national stadium, in front of 25,000 fans who turned up. It baffles me as to how we can draw China and lose by 1 goal margins to Japan and yet implode against Uzbekistan. The dreams of 2010 are hanging by a thread now.

missing...

The language of reason, unaccompanied by kindness, will often fail of making an impression; it has no effect on the understanding, because it touches not the heart. The language of kindness, unassociated with reason, will frequently be unable to persuade; because, though it may gain upon the affections, it wants that which is necessary to convince the judgment. But let reason and kindness be united in a discourse, and seldom will even pride or prejudice find it easy to resist. - Gisborne

NTU Bike Rally Photos

2008-06-03T22:49:00.008+08:00

As promised here are some shots all courtesy of kwek junhong, the gay duck.

Me in a weird position ( why does he take all the guai lan stuff )

The cyclists before the ordeal and before everyone nearly died

Gab, me and the raisin bread :D, took 14 of those throughout the course of the entire day

Kwek and Me

Refueling

Superstar( dunno what )

Rainbow =)

Amos, Kwek, Weihan and Me ( hair still looks ok here )

At the NTU checkpoint

That is malaysia you see

The 1st group who made it to the 3rd checkpoint ( notice i am not inside )

Checkpoint 4

Weihan, dunno did how many pushups in a compeition to win a timex watch worth 100++ bucks

NTU Bike Rally 2008, 128km!

2008-06-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

Going to be a lengthy post, be warned. Pictures will come later if i get them haha. Had bike rally yesterday, sunday 1st of june 2008. I'll go by chronological order.

Woke up at 4am, managed to get my dad to wake up too and send me to east coast park by 5am. Ok i was 10-15 minutes late :P. Sorry ahha. At 5+am we were the only few people there. 1st group to register, gh got the number 001. I got 007 aka cristiano ronaldo aka james bond, not bad haha. Got our bikes, before moving to east coast macs to buy breakfast. It is a sort of warm up i guess, but in no way did it prepare us for what laid ahead. Reported back to the starting point near the food centre for the start of the rally.

1st leg was from east coast to labrador park. cycled through the city area, past the singapore flyer, esplanade, fullerton, one raffles quay, vivocity before hitting the park. The 1st stage was quite a breeze, considering that the terrain was flat, the sun wasnt out and we had our energy still.

2nd leg was from labrador to NTU, this route mainly followed west coast road all the way up, got to seen some part of singapore which i never been to before, mostly the area after west coast park and the pandan reservior area. The slopes there were agonizing. Took most of the juice out of my legs, and it is there that i fell behind the pack lol. Notable landmarks include west coast park, pandan reservior, city harvest church and NTU.

3rd leg was the worst in my opinion. Stretching from NTU to kranji reservior. There is a whole long stretch of flat road that looked like it never end. Its actually a emergency runway used by the RSAF that feeds into tengah airbase. The sun was blazing down and you can see mirages on the road, those shimmering images. The slopes there was mad too, had to get off my bike to push for one of them, no way my legs could have taken it. Passed through lots of farms and cemetries and jungle on both sides.

4th leg, from kranji to yishun was the best of the worst. NTU put up signs on the lamppost labeling each peak in front of us, i think there were a total of 4. Pushed my bike up one of them as well. The rest mainly used the momentum from going downhill before the crests to get me up the next hill. Forced myself not to touch the brakes haha. Reached yishun stadium, and civilisation in the early afternoon, at least for most parts the sky was overcast. Cycled past mandai zoo, tons of forest and factories and thats about it.

5th lg started at yishun stadium and ended at serangoon secondary school. The path was mainly scenic country side, ( as compared to wild country side at the kranji area ). The area around seletar counrty club was nice, if only we werent so tired. Took a break just before cutting back into the fernvale estates and just dropped dead at the bus stop with hh, gab and jh whom which i was cyclign with. The later part of this leg consist of cycling through the sengkang area. Thank god for traffic lights. everytime the lights turned red = water break time, and we hit 4 to 5 consecutive red lights lol. My thighs really start to cramp during this point. Really on the brink already. Luckily hit serangoon sec in one piece. Places of interest: Seletar country club, seletar airport, MRT/LRT underground at sengkang.

6th and 2nd last leg, ended at changi beach. Took old tampines road up till pasir ris, then from then onwards it is all home stretch for me, having cycled the route before. Rested twice, just after IKEA and just before downtown east. Also the changi beach checkpoint is situated much further down than the usual expected place. Passed by paya lebar airbase, giant, IKEA, downtown east, changi village and changi beach.

Last leg! ( 7th ) cycled from changi beach all the way down to the east coast food centre that area. Took the newly completed park connector, ahh relief. Followed the length of the airport runway before cutting into east coast. Saw 4 planes taking off along the way, 747s and 777, 2 silkairs, 1 JAL, 1 SIA. Cycled like a mad chiongster because there was no gradient, and my leg found its strength. Finally arrived at the end point around 6.15. Landmarks: Changi airport, east coast park.

Finally, clocked 128km. My butt hurts like mad after completing the rally. Actually it started hurting after the NTU leg haha, and it still hurts now. My arms hurt from grabbing the handlebars, and i look slightly oven toasted, although yang said i looked no different lol. Glad its done. Super tiring but looking back, it wasnt a bad experience. The lucky draw prizes isnt bad too, with crumplers and bikes. Too bad i did not win any. I ate 14 gardenia rasin buns throughout the whole trip and drank 5 litres of water. Consumed 2 buns at every checkpoint, think i'll die without them. Btw, in case you all didnt notice, we cycled past all of singapore's airbases ( tengah, sembawang, paya lebar, changi ) and airports ( seletar, changi ) along the way. Hope to be back next year, with proper training. Three cheers for the guys of 0713 ( gh, jh, amos, wh, gab, hh ) who gave their very best and 'ren' until the end. Oh and i hope to take part in the sundown marathon next year, it was held the day before, i was not old enough this year to take part ( like there is any difference between 17 and 18 ).

Ok nights, got econs tomorrow at 830 for 3 HOURS wth. Save the pictures and the blasting of singapore for their 7-3 lost some other time, too tired.

What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within out into the world, miracles happen. - Henry David Thoreau

Shopping

2008-05-30T23:29:00.003+08:00

Went to school today, as usual, skipped econs lecture ( seriously, waking up to reach school at 8am on a school holiday? ), went for an organic chem test. Did not study the mechanisms at all, so didnt score what i deserved, i think. After that, went shopping with the guys; JC, JH, GH, Gab and yanchao. Shopped for a total of 8 hours. My stamina is gone man. Shopped from 1 to 9, with 1 lunch and 1 dinner break thrown in between. Headed to far east plaza to some 'la mian' shop, the food is not bad but the enviornment is not what you would normally expect from a shop situated at orchad road. Went pacific plaza, shaw, wisma atria and takashimaya S.C.. I bought a pair of jeans from topman at decent price, thats all of my reapings for the day. Caught the bus to suntec from outside lucky plaza. Apparently the 'queensway syndrome' was still with us, and today it morphed into the 'orchad syndrome'. Everyone was super guai lan and crappy haha. On the bus, i became err queenie yap, jiacheng became, gay woo ( try pronuouncing it together, its weird ) and junhong became gay duck. Guohao... Guo ahmittahao Gosh. Gab and yanchao was spared the most of it haha. Laughed like mad when gh and jh recounted the incident where they sprayed a teacher wet with water while he was peeing in the toilet lol. Went to suntec, visited adidas, nike and tons of other sports shop. Played fifa street 3, i still havent got over the 1 goal curse hiaz, lost to who else but... Went over to marina square to shop somemore after that, with a dinner at long john's silver thrown in. After that went home dead tired on 162 with yanchao.

According to jh's blog, we spent a total of 2 hours in topman alone today, visited 4 outlets haha. I also realised that i could squeeze reasonably well into an extra small ( xs ) sized shirt lol. For pictures please visit jh's blog, lazy to update or get from him haha, got me looking.. well.. wrong. Got NTU cycling on sunday, tomorrow hopefully going down to support kel and yang for their performance.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing, and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. - Henri Nouwen, Out of Solitude

Desolate

2008-05-30T23:18:00.003+08:00

A nice Poem/ song composed by a friend of mine, its titleless lol

It may not seem like I’m there
Coz I’m always around
And when I don’t make a sound
You said I’ve gone away, that’s not fair
Sometimes you leave me hanging
With no replies from my constant asking
Sometimes you show you care
You tried to show you’re there
It’s just my imagination

You leave me breathless with just a kiss
You leave a gap I struggle to fill
I heard everything you wanted to say
Coz your eyes give away, the words you won’t say
Kept hidden everyday
I just can’t love you it said

The days seemed long when you’re not around
The nights together don’t seem to go on
Tomorrow keeps me guessing
If there’s a moment where we’re talking
But I won’t know that for sure
It’s more than a torture
To hope and wonder but always getting another
May the moment spent with you last forever

Everytime you’re near, I wish you’d go away
I’d rather not have this feeling than to give it away
So don’t come near me and just let me be
I don’t love you if we’re not meant to be
But please, don’t go now that you’re here

- by a friend

wonderful isnt it

STAR WARS: THE CLONE WARS

2008-05-28T22:20:00.004+08:00

OMG, Star Wars is hitting the screens again ( knew it for some time :D ) here is the new trailer. Its UBER cool. DEFINITELY DIE DIE GUARANTEE PLUS CHOP not going to miss it. Any padawans out there interested? Heres the trailer just out

http://www.apple.com/trailers/wb/starwarstheclonewars/

Watch it.

May the force be with you

Results? Worthy?

2008-05-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

Since there is a raging argument on yanyu's blog tagboard, as well as the local papers, regarding the animadversion of the difficulty and results of school tests, i'll do a short post here to give my comments. although both debates examine different areas of the topic, they are both sparked off by the same source, students not getting the ideal grades for their tests/ examinations. If someone does not get an ideal score for their test and examinations, especially those exceedingly driven onces, what are the consequences? A lost of morale, a devaluing of one's self? Perhaps the kids mentioned in the articles in the papers are too young to take the results in the proper context. For scores alone carry no value. When compared against the immediate competition, under the same scenarios, only then will your results be an accurate reflection of your status, in academics or whatever discipline you pursue. For a school test, it is proper to compare it among your school mates, for an external exam such as the PSLE, 'O' levels and the 'A' levels, the comparison is brought to a national level. These 2 cases are independent of one another. So yanyu, you can relax, for i do not think that half the cohort is going to fail mathematics for the A levels, like they did for block test ( including me ). This very fact is recognised by the cambridge examiners as well as the ministry of education, as the benchmarks for the various grades are not set at an absolute score. Hence, as long as you take the nature of your results, and interpret it corresponding to your enviornment, you will find that your results are significantly over average. Ergo, do not fret, work hard, and give yourself credit when it is due.

Army Half Marathon

2008-05-27T21:23:00.005+08:00

Readers from 0713, or whoever who is interested, visit nanyang0713.blogspot.com. I posted there Regarding the Army Half Marathon.

Solitude

2008-05-26T01:02:00.008+08:00

Had the bestest best street soccer game today in ages. YEAHHH. scored a personal best ( in recent times ) 7 goals today. The goals were nice too, almost every kind you can think of, except maybe a bicycle kick haha. One long shot, a long range backheel, and a hard 1st time volley from the side. =), cant wait to play with the class. Leeds United lost their league 1 playoff to Doncastle, 1-0. 1 more season in league 1, wth. :( Ok last self imposed day of freedom has passed.

A beautiful essay by a friend of my friend

Healing Silence -Bloom

After the concert, I gave her a flower and told her she danced beautifully that night. She peered at me from under her eyelashes, large eyes surveying me as if verifying the truth of my words, then her lips parted to give a shy, sweet smile, pride emanating. How different she was now from when she was on stage. She was surefooted and confident where the stage, only the stage was her world.

Now, she rather reminded me of the sunflower she was holding in her hands. Like a flower before bloom, silent in the wind, swaying while the world beckoned it, she was afraid to bloom, to expose herself to this world she was so unsure of. Like how a flower needed to be pretty and fragrant to attract the butterflies and bees, she wished to be beautiful and to be liked by all. She wanted to impress and yet she wanted to fit in and be accepted by those around her. She needed to know, to be certain that she was good before she bloomed. Otherwise, she was silent.

The sun nudged the flower, the rain caressed it, and the caretaker tended to it meticulously before the bud started to open. What she needed was for somewhere to whisper to her that the world was safe and that she would be accepted. To her, words of affirmation and encouragement were soothing as cream, slowly assuaging her self-doubt.

Just like how the sunflower in her hands opened towards the sun, her beam at my compliment showed her belief in my words and she knew I was going to show her no contempt. Trusting, she bloomed beautifully as the smile lit up her face.

“Thank you,” she said, wanting to stay silent no longer.

- Eileen Tay Kai Ying

If only it was so..
Missed

Most other passions have their periods of fatigue and rest, their suffering and their cure; but obstinacy has no resource, and the first wound is mortal - Thomas Paine

Photos, Henderson Bridge View

2008-05-25T23:52:00.013+08:00

Some photos taken yesterday, abit blur, from Henderson Bridge.

Its tricky

2008-05-25T00:48:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 8 o'clock on a SATURDAY ( i can sleep to 2pm if i had nothing on and i slept the the previous night, just go ask my mom ) to go to NTU at boon lay, BOON LAY for the 112 km thing i am going for next weekend, with a few of my male classmates, namely gab, jc, hh, jh, gh and wh. Took 52 form bishan to jurong east interchange, 1 hour. trip from jurong to boonlay, 20 minutes, bus from boonlay to NTU 15 minutes, got lost and walked to our destination, 20 mins. Guess what, wasted all this time to attend a 15 MINUTES briefing. Crazy man. Thats not even counting the return trip. They did not even distribute the event singlet like they said they were going to because of some problems with the printer of the singlets. Screwed up. Ok, its going to be a round island cycling trip, taking bout 10 to 12 hours, starting at 6am in the morning ( not sure ). Checkpoints are at East Coast, West Coast, NTU, Kranji, Yishun, Serangoon, Changi, and back to East Coast. Did i miss out any? You readers can infer the route lol. Going to be hell lots of fun. After that the people who went, me, wh, gab and hh went to jurong point, ate lots of macs due to me bringing coupons that gave them free items if they bought the extra value meal. gab and wh took macflurry, me and hh took nuggets. Full brunch ( i skipped breakfast as usual ), then chionged arcade. Blew 7 bucks each, between me and hh on a new dinosaur shooter game. Damn fun, and gab was controling our movements in the game lol. So all 3 of us kind of played at the same time. Rushed home after that.

Uncle came to pick me up at around 4 for a trip to the new bridges at south east of singapore. Parked at telok blangah, walked all the way to hortpark with my cousin and their parents. Quite tiring but fun haha. The view from henderson bridge is magnificent. Hope can find the time to go back there again and walk the entire distance to west coast park. Along the way, some idiot decided to put a mentos into my water bottle. It dissolved and now my nike water bottle insides are coated with a layer of sticky mentos essence after i empted the water. nice job.

I swear i'll get my physics SPA done by tomorrow, no more time to lose.

The moon have been looking great these few days haha, If you have the chance, do glance upwards once in awhile and admire its beauty.

GP on friday, hiaz. When people have expectations, u have to try your best to live up to them lol. Yet, on hindsight, i felt i chose the wrong question, because its darn tricky. "Never think that war, no matter how necessary nor justified, is not a crime'. Do you agree? I mean, if it is justified, then it cannot be considered a crime right? Dunno lah, may luck befall me. AQ was crappy as usual, hate the short time they give us to write an argument, and why the hell do all AQs have to be relevant to your society, ie. Singapore. Speaking of which, yay, we got pedra branca haha.

I think i am in need of a break, but then i havent really been studying. Nope not very much at all. Its paradoxical, i am hoping for a break this holidays yet i am wishing that i dont get any, for taking a rest means less time to catch up on work way behind. confused. GSS is on, hope to get my music/video player and some wadrobe refreshments during this period, if i can spare the time. Oh and i need a pencil case before the mid years damnit.

Long post haha, take your time sorry to make you read all these, if you actually bothered lol

I am not going to make the same mistake twice.

In this uncertain space between birth and death … we need hope as surely as we need food and water, love and friendship. The trick, however, is to remember that hope is a perilous thing, that it's not a steel and concrete bridge across the void between this moment and a brighter future. Hope is no stronger than tremulous beads of dew strung on a filament of spider web, and it alone can't long support the terrible weight of an anguished mind and a tortured heart - T.G.S.R. ( no idea who the hell or what the hell is T.G.S.R. )

Enigmatic

2008-05-22T19:10:00.009+08:00

Class is getting addicted to basketball lately, played it for the 2nd time this week today. My basketball skills are non existant, haha, any apparent reflexes and stamina are imported over from sports in which i am more inclined to, e.g. badminton and soccer. Became the unofficial 'defender' for my team ( i dont know whats the basketball term for a defender ) since i erm have a high sucess rate of stealing other people's balls ( sounds way wrong ). Scored 2 shots so far in 3 games lol, at least i broke my duck liao. The ball just dont seem to want to go into the hoop. Still prefer soccer though, hopes jh recovers faster and then our class will have an proper stiker and we can return to challenging other people in street soccer. Kudos to basketball though, it wasnt as horrendous as i expected =).

On tuesday me and jh were rotting away during the maths revision lectures and so we discussed our grand schemes to form a street soccer team at the end of the year ( field soccer if we can get enough people, anyone interested? ). Turned into a somewhat crapping session. Here are some of the names we came up with for the team name.
AFC, BFC, 2,4DNPHFC and CFC. Try and guess what they stand for haha. Its very lame. Answers below

[ Alpha football club, Benzene football club ( of which the benzene ring will be our club symbol ), 2,4-dinitrophenylhydrazine football club, and lastly, chloroflorocarbons ]

Some other lame stuff jh sprouted include some insults regarding weight, e.g. you are so fat you weight looks like my phone number, you are so fat you need to be baptised in an ocean, you are so fat that when you step on the weighing scale, it says one at a time please. ( oook, abit cold, haha, not meant to offend anyone, he quoted those from some radio program. )

Manchester United won the champions league, congrats, but the Los Merengues will be back soon. Slept a grand total of 3 hours last night. According to jh ( why isit him again ), this would most probably be the last champions league final we will be watching, as next year, we'll be in NS so cannot see, unless UEFA decides to move it to a weekend lol, and the season after that singtel would take over the rights. I am so not going to suscribe to it ( my dad wouldnt agree to it too haha ), its crazy paying 100 over bucks for a set-top box and 10 over dollars per month to watch a competition which ur team gets a maximum of 13 matches IF they make it to the finals. It was nerve biting, man utd's goal was nice, the buildup was classy and ronaldo's header was superb. Lampard's had a stroke of luck, but chelsea did dominate the proceedings in the 2nd half, so it can be looked as reward in advance haha. the match dragged on for 3 hours, meaning it was 5.45am by the time i went back to sleep. Could have easily ended up 3-3 or more if both teams had taken their chances. Penalty shootout, i'm neutral and i felt the tension, so fans of either team, i imagine you all will be on the verge of cardiac arrest if you are watching it 'live', but that is teh ufn isnt it ;). GP tomorrow, good luck to all. Dont feel confident this time.

Search yourself, you know its true.

The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. - Barbara Kingsolver

Gotta go, gotta go

2008-05-19T00:33:00.005+08:00

Sundays, ahh crap. Wasted my entire weekends not doing work. Gotta start, and i mean START NOW. No more procastinating, i am sick of my own procastinating. Its disgraceful. The weather is getting unbearable, the heat is killing me. Nearly suffered heat stroke during street soccer this morning ( ok exaggeration ). Awhile ago i just bathed and i was feeling sticky and sweaty all over half an hour after i got out of the shower. I do sweat more than most of you here, but never experienced this extreme kind of heat before. I do prefer the warmth ( like on a normal afternoon ) to the cold ( like LT4's freezing temperatures last year ) but this is too much. Just now was sitting in my dad's car, and again i was prespiring forno darn reason, alhough the aircon was on. Nope i aint gonna turn my aircon on at home, cant stand that artificial recycled air feel. Wont blame global warming too, i dont believe in that crap. I mean yes there is global warming, but the effects isnt that drastic. Gosh!

Juggled a soccer ball, 61 times yesterday while playing with gab ong ming. New personal record. As you all know, my ball juggling kind of sucks, so practice does indeed work. Leeds united won their playoff 2nd leg 2-0 after losing their 1st leg 2-1. PHEW!. They just have to win the playoff finals and they'll be back in the coca cola championship. 1 step closer to the premiereship. Will heard more about them if they get promoted haha. Good luck to the lads, LUFC forever.

Your hopes, dreams and aspirations are legitimate. They are trying to take you airborne, above the clouds, above the storms, if you only let them. - William James

Friday!

2008-05-17T02:05:00.001+08:00

Finally man, a friday which i dont have to associate with the term 'blue' e.g., friday blues. Today was great. I finished my poisson tutorial yesterday ( hey man, i know this is routine for some people, but for me, and i think most of you will agree, its a miracle ^_^ ), so did not have any pressure to do some last minute rush copying today. The tutorials today was damn slack, chem was more relaxed, GP was slack ( as usual ), and econs and physics, the only trouble is to try and stay awake. Phew. School ened at around 4.15 today after an interesting remedial given by our chem teacher on how to draw organic compounds and chemistry equations on the computer. Quite cool actually. Played abit of soccer after school with the soccer guys, and then left with Gab and yanchao to go to J8 to buy.. err socks haha. Bought a pink and a red one. its HOT pink btw, so gonna wear it to school one day.

Went home, bathed, then rushed to bugis to go meet up with the house com for farwell dinner for the J2s. Million thanks to the J1s who sponsered our feast at Seoul Gardens. Did some crazy stuff ( fried chocolate icecream and egg mix doesnt taste nice at all, more like egg flavoured sloidified milo powder ), made a din ( might be getting some complains considering we were wearing our exco shirts... ), and ate till our hearts content. Took alot of pictures, will post them if i feel like it and when i get them. took 133 home with a couple of them in the end. Had a great dinner. Many thanks to Xinyi for painting my house.. err representation of a house actually haha. I think mine was the most complicated among all the J2s so, thanks lots yea =). House com, Dragon house rocks!

I need to start running soon. Got lots of event coming up in the 3rd and 4th quarter of the year. Without soccer training, if i dont do anything, my stamina will go down the drain. I dont wanna grow fat haha ( abit extreme but possible ). Trying to clock up 10-20km per week, but dunno where and when to run. Time seems hard to come by. I want to hit 45 mins for the 10km passion run, after that target mizuno wave run, army half marathon, new balance real run, and the highlight of this year, the standard chartered marathon, i'll finally be 18. Hope the do not count from the start of the year of something, so i can take part in the full marathon category. I'll make the orbituries if i dont train for that haha. Gotta play more street soccer too, my limited ball control seems to be getting more and more off colour lately. Last and most importantly, start and continue my high intensity studying for the mid years. I do not want to fail them.

Have strength, for you are not weak
Take heart from the courage that abound within you
The will, the faith and the believe are all that you need
All the world thinks matters not
For beauty is within the eyes of the beholder
Look inside you, for there is a flame that will never go out
A flame that is shared by your familiars
Do justice to your being
It is what you are deserving of.

When you wage a struggle, you might win or you might lose. But regardless of the short-term outcome, the very fact of your continuing to struggle is proof of your victory as a human being. - Daisaku Ikeda

Love.... quotes

2008-05-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

Since my dear cousin shermaine asked me recently why i got so many love quotes on my blog ( in her words it is ' are you in love or something ) i would like to clarify something haha. i am NOT posting those quotes because i am in love or i am emo, i am a happy happy person. Nope. Well you all can think all you like, but dont you think love is a topic that is unique. That is why there are so many quotations about it in the 1st place. It is a wonderful feeling/ emotion, between lovers, relations, friends, and maybe even ur pet dog or goldfish. One which i felt that it should be deserving enough for it to be showcased on my blog. Love is a wonderful thing. The world is a better place because of it =). So heres another one.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. There are three things that last faith, hope and love, and love is the greatest of these. - Landon Carter, A Walk to Remember

Manchester United are the Champions

2008-05-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

The primere league went down the wire, and congrats to manchester united for retaining the title. Real and Man Utd really are intertwined. My leeds united made the 2nd last playoff spot too despite a 15 point deduction :D.

Too bad it was never meant to be. Live life without regrets. It still holds

Dead beat

2008-05-10T01:35:00.003+08:00

How do i put today in words haha, horrendous doesnt quite fit it. An understatement in fact. Lets give all my dear readers a roundup.

Today was be yourself day for our school. Due to certain complication that arose, me and mings didnt wear our cat high uniform. Last chance to don the green shorts and metal buttoned shirt and i blew it. Great job chuen hwee. 10 years studying in a certain school does make u feel a certain attachment to it, regardless of whether u like the school or not. I wish i had the courage to just go against what miss hazel told mings bout registering but i didnt. I wish i had the courage to convince all old boys to wear it. I wished that i did not had to care whether anyone else wore the uniform and just wear it. I feel so let down, of all things, by myself. To some of you, this may seem foolish or trivial, but to me, it is not. I think mings might share the same feeling?.

Gotten an obscenely bad score form the chem test returned at assembly. Mrs Lim didnt bother to mark any of the diagrams and stuff that i drew in pencil. I would have still failed but, but at least a more decent score. Cant blame her, if i do that for A levels, i'll also screw myself. Was practically machine-guned during chem tutorials and the physics practical lessons. The bullet holes should appear any moment now. Ok i'm being lame. -_-". Chem extra lessons, followed by 'no end' with jiacheng and weiliang ( do refer to my previous posts if you wanna know what 'no end' is about ). Also found out that every thursday i have to stay back at 3.30 with the rest of the chem failures for chemistry related stuff. Wednesday i am also down after school with soccer people in Mrs Lim's class. Gotta respect her man, although i've given her shitloads of crap, she still havent given up on me. Appreciate that, will work hard to repay that during the midyears. The fact that this practices are meant to be good for you doesnt mean i have to like them.

Got 2 econs essay, tons of chem worksheets, 2 maths tutorials to complete, and chemistry SPA A to memorise during the weekends, all due at varying times next week. Oh and i did not clear the 'no end' thing, so monday will have to report at 8am for another session. Finally left school at 7pm today. I am so mentally drained, and tired. I really should be sleeping now, but dont feel like. Good thing my CCA commitments are over. If not, i'll turn suicidal or something come the mid years.

Nope, i shant blame anyone, including myself. Pull the act together and get going. Even the food today was awful. had vegetarian noodles at 10am, then a cup noodle at 5. Thats all i ate in school. Measly by my standards. Bad, bad day. Haiz. Just realised that all the todays in this post should be yesterdays instead. Glad that there are people who are enjoying themselves. The world would really suck if everyone is feeling down together haha.

Isit that hard?, am i that unworthy?

We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love. - Tom Robbins

Response to ykm's article

2008-05-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

Let me first declare that my tagline is not, 'Let the inferior people die'. Rather, it is more akin to 'society should not channel an over proportionate amount of resources into pushing people with an inability onto the same plane as people with inborn qualities which predisposes them to have a better chance at survival and for taking the human race forward, and if by doing so it causes the premature curtailing of living for these people, it would be an acceptable loss.'

Darwinian theory of evolution dictates that the fittest survive. The question here is, what determines who or what is the fittest. There is no value or scale that exists which can assign each and every individual his place in the pecking order of elimination by falling out of the evolution rat race. Yet, in over indulging our aid to people who will give a fairly low probability of return, we risk a misallocation of resources. Let me pose a scenario. Do you want to pile a person who is mentally slower with tuition and other academic stimuli to enable him to scrap through the education system, or would you prefer to give these services to a person with an average level of mental capacity to enable him to progress further. The point i am making, is that the peak amount of achievement is not a general platform shared by everyone. Some people have a greater propensity to achieve greater heights than others. Why impose a cap on the top just to achieve a mediocre rate of return from the bottom. Human progress was never defined by what is languishing below, it is defined by the soaring heights to which talents take society. Draw you a case in point, people today still uses technologies that were introduced from ancient history. Yet, why are the continued usuage of such technologies not mentioned when we talk about progress? It is the new introductions which enter society which shapes the fabric of society and defines progress. We need people of ability to carve out new openings in every field everywhere. They shoulder a great burden in dragging society forward. Would it not be more prudent to alleviate their load and help their cause instead? That being said, i believe that everyone should be given a bare minimum level of help, if required to get them to a certain point. From then on, it is all up to them.

This is not a suggestion to intentionally put down people who are on the lower rungs of society. As quoted from ykm, Hellen Keller surmounted her disabilities to achieve her goals. If people are at the lower reaches of society, then more effort will have to be put in to get them to where they want to be. I am not saying that it is a total impossibility for people to achieve what they want. If poeple do want something that badly, they should be prepared to put in an effort proportionate to their abilities, but isit too much to ask that society drag, i stress the word drag, these people up to a higher standing? Then again, there are also limits, either imposed by the being him/herself, or by current reality. For all the hard work we put in, and all the assistance society gives us, do you think you or me have the adroitness to become an astronaut? There is only so much that your enviornment and outside help can do. The rest is coded into your genes. Everyone should be given the chance to achieve their dreams, but not all dreams are meant to be attained.

I have to admit, there is no fool proof way of sieving out the strong from the weak and in deciding who should recieve a quantifiable amount of aid. There probably never will be any such method. Hence, i stress that the views i expressed here are my visions for a utopian society which maximises efficiency, something that is a close impossibility in reality due to the various factors that interplay.

Here ends my short reply to ykm,

( i'll try to organise a better response during the june hols or sometime when i am free haha, but i dont think i'll ever beat your word count. Btw i never claimed that i am the elite or near the top rung of society. I am just an average teen trying to survive my A levels year. Yups, Cheers )

Monday soccer blues

2008-05-05T21:08:00.007+08:00

Lost 2-0 to RJ today, haha, now we dont even have a chance in theory to qualify. They played better, period. Came on for 35 mins, but i think i played like crap. Stamina was non-existant, i think partly due to the flu i had over the weekends, and am still having now, was panting like a dog after 5 mins. Madness, considering i can run 2.4 in 9 minutes flat, and gone through the ACS(I) game in the blazing heat without too much fatigue. Ah well, think this is highly probable to be my last game in NY colours. I had a decent run, haha 28 games if my memory didnt fail me, 1 goal. Some RJ guy stepped on my ankle while i tackled him just now, its swelling now, was damn pain. Subsided a little. The bus took AYE then the CTE to bring us home, instead of the usual PIE then CTE route.

Seeing NUS, was somehow reminded about LTC and the fun we had there. Missed those times man, missed the people, missed the lessons, the torture. It also made me realise how little i had seen of the western part of singapore, i've been the the central ( i live there ), south ( orchad road and stuff ) and east ( chalets etc ). but seldom head to the west. Post A levels, i think i am gonna organise a round island jogging trip or something. Any takers?.

Have maths test tomorrow. My poorest subject. Hope to do well this time. the topics dont seem so difficult.

I still dont have people to accompany me if i wanna go for the NY concert. ANYONE INTERESTED? Is it too much to ask, for you people to appreciate classical muic in a sense. Wonders what the class did for PE after they passed NAPFA. I wanna watch Ironman, and i still havent watched forbidden kingdom )=

Its depressing see-ing people breakup around me recently. How did something which seemed so perfect fall out of place. Sometimes, it makes me wonder, do you have THAT sort of care for me? Did anyone ever have? I'll sort it out i swear, ariel did fall for eric after all. ( i think almost none of you can figure this out =) )

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more. - Erica Jong

Weekends

2008-05-05T00:24:00.001+08:00

Attended AJ idol on friday, at AJ. Its nice to see some familiar faces, like martin, ceph, kendrick, alford, carol. The performers werent that fantastic. Carol's group was decent, and they bagged the best band award, but the instrumentals kind of overpowered the vocals. Their solo category winner isnt that bad either. Missed her cos i went in late ( from training at NYJC ), but she gave a repeat performance after she was declared the winner. Mark Tan as host was his usual impressive self, haha havent lost any of his CHMA hosting sign. Congrats to ceph ( if hes reading this ) for organising it, and being the AIC lol, koped tons of ideas from CHMA. After that, had dinner with yang and carol until 11+ before we headed our seperate ways.

Saturaday began with me dragging myself out of bed early in the morning to go support/ help the class with their Napfa. Passed mine 2 to 3 weeks ago. Was abit hesitant about going at 1st, afterall, sleep IS good haha, but glad that i went down and contributed in the end. So it was well worth the missed sleep. The class did well, everyone passed their napfa except for 3 people, including jh with his injury. Weiliang and yanchao, you 2 better pass ur SBJ u hear me, u dont wanna waste 3 months of ur life next year. Just train hard, you can do it. and SEOW WEILIANG, next time i ask you to run, u better run, wha lao, i pace you liao still fail, by 3 secs. just push abit harder next time can already. Played soccer with eugene peter's class and some other J1s after napfa, hes my successor btw, the new dragon captain. Not bad they all, only 5 guys, yet all are into/ can play soccer haha. The heat is terrible though. Went home, felt the onset of flu. Nose turned into a waterfall, and felt pretty tired, just wanted to sleep, but forced myself not to. Saturday afternoons aint meant for sleeping. Stoned abit then met yang in the evening for dinner and to go to CJ's concert at their own performing arts centre. Its nothing like Victoria Concert Hall, or Esplanade, but its nice to have a building dedicated to performances in your school ( its way better than LT4, its seats has cushion and its carpeted ). The concert is not bad, liked the 1st movement of Yellowstone symphony by James Barnes, as well as an arrangement of Jupiter by Gustav Holst for a saxophone quartet. Pity they didnt play the full orchestral or band version, its one of my favorites. Their saxophone section is hardcore, jiff said its part of CJ culture lol. Enjoyed the performance, havent been to a band performance in a long long while. Met weihan, john and some of the kayakers there too, apparently to support their friends. Miss playing the clarinet, and being part of a group who makes music. Being able to feel and express through music. Its even more saddening to know that you could have easily been among those people performing at CJ, or even at NY's concert next week, or i could have followed the twins to AJ, they're like principle players there now. I am sure i am of the same standard, if not better. I gave it all up for soccer. Has it been worth it?. I dont see myself being part of any amateur bands in future, so i guess my music journey is over.

Today, met up with gab, jc and jh to go queensway all wanted to buy shoes, or shorts. In the end only gab went home with a pair of adidas sneakers he fell in love with at 1st sight. $70+ not a bad catch, considering it was just out. I so wanna get the puma sneakers haha. Although gab, jc and jh thinks that it sucks, i think it has class man. Still a lil sick now.

Yanchao got his blog up, haha congrats

The weather, argh there was lightning like 30 mins ago, so happy it was going to rain. Rain makes for nice sleeping conditions, but the sky is still holding up now.

hope real madrid wraps up the title by this morning, if they win. Cheers man, 2nd title in a row. Kianny is right. He told me last time that whenever man utd won in recent times, real madrid will also win ( he supports man utd ), ran into him on friday night lol. Yea pal, u're right haha. Guys if you dont believe me, go check ur history books.

I care, even if i dont appear so.

Happiness comes more from loving then being loved; and often when our affection seems wounded it is only our vanity bleeding. To love, and to be hurt often, and to love again - this is the brave and happy life. - J. E. Buckrose

Mayday

2008-05-01T22:31:00.004+08:00

Camped over at Junhong's house last night/ today morning. Played tons of halo, as usual his brother owned us, rocket launcher was crazy and fun. Fifa i keep losing to Junhong by 1 goal margins. 1st match warm up lost 4 or 5-0 cant remember. What followed was 2-1, 1-0 and so on. Although improvement, i did manage to get more shots then him in one of the matches, and i think he bribed my playes, all cannot chip on target. Top spin is addictive, dont blame me for the spasms lol, 1st time playing. Gab, Junhong was goin crazy during top spin. Guohao went crazy during the match which was the purpose of our visit. Liverpool lost 3-2, extra time. After the game, the clock was inching past 5, everyone was pretty knocked out. Sadly, my fifa lounge hopes went up in flames. Junhongs sofa wasnt that bad. When u are deprived of sleep, anywhere will do. Woke up at 8+/9, me gab GH went to get breakfast while junhong went for tuition. Had lor mee, supposedly some popular stall at old airport road food centre. ( btw its not that i was lazy to queue, just that i didnt want to eat the lor mee until GH brought his here, looked kinda appetising so decided to order after all, so dont think i am some lazy bum who ps-ed u all queueing haha, ok maybe i am lazy, but i didnt ps u all ). Went home via bus, had lunch then slept from 3.30 to 8. Had dinner and slacked abit. Going to start on chem soon, haha although its very very late i guess. I get closer to going for the 'no end' thing every minute haha ( For my class, if u fail chem, u stay back next thursday after common lunch break, until... no end, as said by Mrs Lim ). I dont think i'll sleep tonight, seriously. I'll probably be walking around half asleep by tomorrow during training. Chem really has alot of crap to digest, but no choice, sad.

Round up of the week thus far, nothing much. Highlight was tuesday's econs lecture and tutorial. Miss poh and the class crapped alot during the extra tutorial session, some extracts :
- Cheryl, upgrade yourself from HH.
- Pulau Bukom, ykm and yan yu.
- Weiliang's gf
- and some stuff bout me which i would care not to elaborate here haha
Econs lecture that day was also quite screwed up, class was goin nuts with laughter over jokes, pranks and stuff. I woke up form my slumber during the lecture due to HH's screaming, only to look at gab and saw a pencil case flying at me, courtesy of him. Yea, that was how crazy everything was. Btw, we had 2 hours worth of econs tutorial and 1 hour of econs lecture that day. Tedious.

Will be attending AJ idol tomorrow after training, mentioned it in my previous post. As mentioned below, they only allow 3 non-AJC-ians audience per performer. Turns out, you are supposed to be more like a family member or relative, instead of friends. So if anyone checks yang is gonna be carol's twin and i'll be her cousin lol. Also, the total number of concerts i'll be attending has increased to 4, including CJC's this saturday haha.

Signing off to avoid 'no end'

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity. - Gilda Radner

Is it?

2008-04-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

Today started and lasted 1 whole game ( like finally ) in this year's A div. Won ACS(I) 6-2, assisted from a throw in along the way. One of the goals was also kinda my fault haha, but a win is a win, although we have nothing much to play for now.

Since like a couple of my previous posts were what you all termed 'emo', i shall do a lighter one here. I would like to thank everyone who has ever been a part of my life in these short 17 going on 18 years that i have existed. Without any of you, my life would have taken a different turn. For better or for worse, we'll nvr know, but i would not have wanted to live my life one bit different from what i have experienced. I thank everyone for allowing me to express myself, be myself without too much of a reprecussion, although i do get on people's nerves sometimes ( and i thank you for allowing me that too ). I thank anyone who have stuck with me through thick and thin, but i shall not over dramatise as those hiccups in my life thus far, would pale in insignificance to those i'll face in future, for your presence was most deeply appreciated. So to everyone who sees this, THANK YOU.
Ok, i think i am going crazy haha.

Wednesday this week is gonna be a free day because training was postponed to friday as fridays match may be rescheduled to next week. So yea more time on my hands this week. Then again, i've got complex due like last friday and not handed in yet, and i DO NOT want to stay back everyday to do work in I-space. Lucky thursday is may day, gives me some time to organise some sort of a response to the chemistry test i have on friday

2 requests to all readers of the blog:
1) Anyone wanna go to the band/ guzheng ensemble performance at the Singapore Conference Hall on 10th may, currently have no one to go with. Tickets are at $10 ( lol why do i seem like i am publicising their concert )
2) Anyone wants to catch Forbidden Kingdom? Its a nice movie i swear, preferably on this wednesday ( as i am free, and it isnt on a weekend so i dont have to burn a chasm in my wallet to watch it ). Havent missed a jackie chan movie since i was able to go for movies on my own, haha dont want this to be the 1st.

Realised that i'll be attending like 3 concerts this month, including the NYJC's band. CHSSB's concert is coming up real soon, and also going to AJ idol at the invitation of caro, since she is performing. ( they have a pretty dumb rule i think, like only can invite 3 non AJC-ians per performer to the showcase, i'll grab my chance haha ).

A quote from Garrett, who quoted it from somewhere else...
Every cloud have a silver lining, except those mushroom shaped ones, those are lined with uranium.

A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities. - William Arthur Ward

Life

2008-04-27T00:07:00.004+08:00

All you living beings out there. I have got a question for you all. Ponder over it well.

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIFE

I dont mean your life u self centered little twit. I mean life, as a whole. What is the point of letting a bunch of atoms achieve conciousness. This brings me to another question, what is conciousness? Is what we currently experience as conciousness just a feeling brought about by the near infinite chemical reactions that takes place in our bodies and our brains. Going by this logic, that all we experience are due to how the makeup of atoms in our body respond to various situations, then do we really have free will?. If you give 2 exactly identical beings ( down to the exact atoms composing them ) a task, will it be performed in the exact same way. OK i digress. You see, life as we know it is housed within this shell of a universe we exist in, and going by the latest theories regarding the fate of the universe ( both the expansionary and big crunch scenario ) the universe will come to an end eventually, same with life. So what is the purpose of letting some matter achieve a state of physical awareness. The more i think about it, the more pathetic i think life is. Maybe, just maybe in the future we'll escape to a parallel universe to avoid our certain death, but for now, that is a physical and theoratical impossibility.

Now, lets talk about OUR lives for a change. Ask yourselves, how have you lived? Have you experienced the maximum that life can offer. Have you given your all in life? What isit that defines your life as being worth it. For all you know, all of us are just a grand coincidence that happened. If the exact sperm and egg didnt meet during ur conceptualism, and the generations before, it may not be your conciousness that is in existance now. If you are not in existance, then you are just a nothingness, you wont even have the right to experience anything. Indeed we're lucky to be alive, from the way i see it, the chances for any of us here NOT being alive as we know it is far greater than winning the lottery. Life's a joke. Sometimes i wonder, if i just maybe die now, would anyone care at all?

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same. - Flavia Weedn

A cool blue saturday night

2008-04-19T23:34:00.009+08:00

Its saturday night, and i am sitting in front of my computer chatting to a couple of people online and playing fm. It is a sucky existance. So many things i want to do, but cant. Today, looked at the poeple going up on stage to receive awards for college day. I want to be up there, for i think my capabilities are more than matching that of most of the people up there. I want to be up there, i deserve to be up there. I know this smacks of arrogance, elitism, overconfidence, or just plain stupidity but so be it. This is my blog and i am allowed to express my feelings. Parents meeting went well. My dad probably have gotten used to meeting my teacher year in year out. He trusts that i'll deliver when the time comes, ie. A levels. I hope for his and my sake that it'll hold true. Mr pun wants 3 As from me for the A levels, and minimum 3 Cs for the mid years. We shall see about that.

Have no idea why i am feeling very empty/ mentally drained/ tired now. Gahh. Wish i could have something to scream at now, or sit under the stars at some beach and stone the night away, or go to a street soccer court and wack some balls under the stars. So many wants, but there is nothing to do about it. I am not one prone to such episodes of downess, so cant dig out the source of it. If any of you can, please tell me so.

I feel as if my soul has been laid bare, and my body is lacking the essence of life.
As if my spirit is ripped from this shell of a living being.
As if the natural order of things arent seeming so.
I feel as if i am cast into a pit with clawing up the sides all but impossible.
The sun is all blotted up yet the moon is nowwhere in sight.
As if my feelings are in a state of helpless narcosis.
As if my mind is losing its lucidity.
My heart is in a violent throe with no signs of abating.
I feel my strength leave, depositing an empty corpse among the waves of reality.
As if my being is crying, but for the lack of tears.
As if a burden is tearing every last breath out of my lungs.
Conciousness is slipping, to be replaced by a everlasting void.
Someone lost in a feeble existance with the light at the end snuffed out.
A hollow, devoid of life.
A human, brought mercilessly down onto his knees by fate.
There is nothing to do, is there?
Would anyone listen, would anyone care?

I abhor emotions. Crappy, Screwed up.
It'll pass. Ignore me.

Love suffers long, and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.... And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. - The Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:4 - 8 (New King James Version) and an alternative "take"

Life on a rollercoaster

2008-04-19T00:30:00.005+08:00

The football team drew ACJC 2-2 today. Good result, as ACJC had won all 4 of their previous matches before meeting us, including defeating RJ, last year's nationals champion. As of now NYJC has 6 points from 4 games, ie. drew 3 won 1. It is not as bad as it seems, as we already dealt with the 2 biggest opponents in our group, and are still undefeated. If u wanna catch dramatic and exciting football that will rocket your heart rate, watch NYJC. Today was another thriller as usual, conceded 2 within the 1st 3 minutes, ( the team has a thing bout lapse of concentration at the start of the game ). I thought it was game over from the bench, but slowly clawed our way to a 2-2 draw. I thought the 2 goals could have been prevented if danial had not been dreaming lah. Then their keeper blundered and it was 2-1. mid-way through the 2nd half, we conceded and saved a penalty. Before yong scored a beauty of a free kick form somewhere not far from the halfway line near the stroke of full time to level the scores. So tons of drama for all you football enthusiasts out there. It was a similar story for the last few games. Against TJC, we scored 1st, but near the final whistle, we allowed them to score, but we somehow managed to conjure up a goal like straight from the restart. Against SAJC, we probably let in one of the fastest goal ever in A divisions, according to coach, it was 52 seconds, then we scored right at the death to force a 1-1 stalemate. Interesting stuff. As for me, i have played a grand total of 10 minutes so far with 1 goal. Have spent lots and lots of time bidding my time on the bench. Well, if the team manages to win or even reach the semis, i will have no qualms about it. I already contributed ( and hope to contribute more ) so quite satisfied. Argh, if only i had been more consistent in J1, the right back slot was mine for the taking. Although ning is doing a great job at right back now haha, but we play 2 different styles.

Had our house exco camp for our J1s last weekend. 3 days 2 nights, draining is an understatement. I slept a grand total of 3 hours for the entire camp, and i am still counted as one of the people who slept the most. Group 1 rocks lol, was their mentor together with Shi Xuan and Darren. Started the camp with some major logistical screw up ( and i decided not to go to my alumni band practice because of that, i guess i have to withdraw after all, just too busy with too many stuff ). The programs mostly went smoothly except for some minor and 1 major hiccup. Can tell the 1st batch of house exco have gone a long way, and did pretty well considering that we had no examples to follow, no seniors to guide us, and no idea what this is all about when we 1st started out. Many thanks to danielle for all her hard work for the camp. I dont think anyone could have done a better job, and played the villian so well lol. Glad the J1s found it tough, yet managed to enjoy the process, learn new stuff, and bond among themselves and the seniors ( us ). Again i declare, this IS NOT meant to be a tekan camp like the SC's. We've got a promising batch of recruits, can expect great things from them. As a sidenote, thanks to arrun for smuggling that breezer in, haha.

Now on to the PW results ( bear with me reader ) I got a B, as most of you reading my blog should know by now, the rest of my group all got C, and my class has no As. I feel that its a pity, because if our WR is only maybe average in standard, i would have gotten my A, easily. Also feeling sad for my group who put in so much effort, especially HH. But this is one subject where hard work does not necessarily translate into results. You need to have that quality in your work to, and that i am sorry to say was lacking in my group ( including me ). Hardwork just isnt enough sometimes. I am also peeved and astounded by the percentage distinction in certain other colleges and the results achived by other people. Call this arrogant, but i do not believe that my standard of writing, presenting and ideas are in anyway inferior to some of the people in these categories. I just cannot stand it when these people, whom i feel that i am easily a notch above, get the same results or score better than me, especially if their individual efforts do not match up to their grades and they only get pulled up because of their group. Also, i sure as hell dont think my report writing or oral skills are lacking behind half of the YJ population, with all due respect. Gotta also improve my GP, its getting from bad to worse, must do something drastic to it, as with my other subjects, when my commitments end.

Damn, it IS complicated. Why cant it be simple, like in black and white.

Love partakes of the soul itself. It is of the same nature. Like the soul, it is a divine spark; it is incorruptible, indivisible, imperishable. It is a point of fire within us, which is immortal and infinite, which nothing can limit and nothing can extinguish. We feel it burning even in the marrow of our bones, and we see it radiate even to the depths of the sky. - Victor Hugo, Les Misérables

NYJC soccer

2008-04-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

A div so far.... can believe we are 3rd lol :)

http://redsports.sg/2008/04/12/roundup-a-division-football/

Lotsa Stuff

2008-04-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

Heres the news, PW results will be out on this friday. All the best to everyone i know who takes PW. Praying for at least a B. Anything lower, i have no idea how i'll react ( this isnt chinese people ). Btw the school is sorely opaque ( as opposed to transparent ) in this case. They probably knew it since a few days ago but as of now, no official word have been breathed to the student population. It is quite adrupt considering that the date for the release of results is in 2 days time. If my target is achieved, the PW group better go out and have a good time. SAKAE BUFFET!!!!, hear that hh.

Tomorrow i'll have to report to school at 6.45am!!! for a meeting with miss hazel together with the rest of my house com people about the house elects J1 camp this weekend. Waking up early, i think even early is an understatement in this case, at the obscene time of 6.45am. This lies up there near the summit of all my top hates. But to ensure that everything runs smoothly, sacrifices ( sleep ) has to be made. Today had another meeting with the J1 house nominees. Found them quite enthusiastic, and spontaneous. They would actually volunteer for tasks and stuff like that, its impressive considering that they are still not entirely inducted into the house exco yet. The house exco would be in good hands with the upcoming batch. Hope they have fun during the camp.

Besides house exco meeting tomorrow, the soccer team have an A Div match against TJ. As such i get to be dismissed at 11.30, but i'll only miss ct only so, its not much of a different, urgh soccer eats up my 'free' thursdays. Hope i get to play again, at least as a substitute.

This post might sound crappy cos i am not actually in a writing mood haha, so bear with me haha.

damn its beginning to get messy.

Sometimes you have to find yourself. And when you do you realize that you may have lost what you wanted in the first place. And you find your self missing something, like a kiss or a word and you hate yourself for not being more forgiving. By then you realize that the one you hurt will never want you. And you know that when you face the uncertain horizon you do so with love that will never fade, but will always grace the intended from afar. - Jerry Grant Blakeney

Football and early dismissal tomorrow

2008-04-07T23:29:00.005+08:00

Well, lets put it on record shall we I SCORED MY 1ST GOAL FOR THE SOCCER TEAM :D. haha, been waiting a long time for that, at least now i can claim to have at least contributed a goal. Not a glamourous goal, but a goal still. Kinda threw my whole head and body at the ball in a sort of weird diving header and forced the ball over the line. It kinda rolled over the line ( form my side view lying on the ground ). Not a bad time too, trailing 1-0 at injury time of the 2nd half after we conceded like within less than a minute in the 1st half. Had no idea what coach had in mind or expected me to do when he threw me into the fray with around 15 / 10 minutes remaining, but well it worked, didnt it. plaudits to the team, who was wonderful despite trailing for like the whole game. We deserved to at least draw, if not win. Hmm, finally felt what its like to score a goal, not bad.... Btw we played SAJC ( national 4th last year ).

Tomorrow was supposed to be early dismissal for NYJC-ians and me ( note the use of the word was ). But the econs department, with all due respect, kinda derailed my plans for a free afternoon. we get dismissed at 1.30 with econs lecture having been brought forward. And to top it all off, wednesday training is brought forward to tomorrow, just perfect ( hints of sarcasm ). There goes my tuesday.

Now, shall blog on the book which is also mentioned on Soh Ee's blog and graciously lent to me by Cindy. Its "I Believe You" by Low Kay Hwa. Its a short romance story, abit intrigued by it cos Soh Ee described it on her blog and so i borrowed it from Cindy. Will not put up spoilers here haha, but it is worth a read, if any of you are looking for some not too tedious reading materials. It is touching, but maybe a little too perfect. Things just do not occur by this process in reality. If things were that sweet, and that easy, wouldnt it be too easy to make someone fall in love with you? No, life's more complicated than that. And also although a nice perfect happy ending would be what most people hope for, i couldnt help but feel a less ideal ending would suit the mood of the book more, haha call me evil but... All in all, i have to admit that when reading the book, i do feel a tinge of sadness for the protaganists in the story, so in that the book has achieved its purpose, in influencing its reader. It is a nice book, a worthwhile read.

I will have choices,
but in the end
it still boils down
to a singularity.

Enjoy,
love is a simple thing. It's either you love, or you don't. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love or you don't. . . Doesn't matter how long the love lasts. You'll be contented once you know you were in love before. - Grandma from "I Believe You" by Low Kay Hwa

Tagged

2008-04-06T16:01:00.002+08:00

quoted from ykm's blog plus modified a little haha
I have been tagged by ykm. The unwritten blogging etiquette says I must do it. So I do lor.

1] At what age do you wish to marry?
Hmm, if i can find the one ( idealistic, i know ), any age will do as long as i can get my lambo 1st haha, joking maybe 28 would be good or 30. Think i will settle for 30

2] What i want the most now?
The motivation to study. No kidding, severely lacking the motivation to study, cos i know that if i study i WILL do well for A levels. Sadly there is no 2 ways about it.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
To be honest, my parents. They are the only ones whom i know will never leave me even when i am down and out, although they may appear otherwise.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yea, maybe a little over confident even.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Become a fighter pilot!!!, or maybe get the lambo. Nah getting an F 35 is better than a lambo hands down.

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Nope, not every rain produces a rainbow, and it depends on where u are relative to the rain and the sun. Since it is not a given that you will see a rainbow, why expect something that might not materialise.

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My hopes

8] Do you believe in eternal love?
Yes, I am an idealist

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I would, damn i have balls haha, to be crude. but things get complicated if it is more than one.

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
1) Generous with trying to help people ( yes thanks for letting me copy ur homework and ur ties lol, although we are not through with the elitism debate yet lol ). 2) Wonderful with computers, haha wont forgot the time u started a shutdown countdown on Soh Ee's computer from your terminal at the library. 3) Studious.

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Decent looking ( comeon be practical ), intellegent, can click with me. Thats bout all. I am a nice person (=

12] What feeling do you hate the most?
When there is something which i want to be known but which isnt made known to me.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I'll only cherish my friendships if it is reciprocated

14] Do you believe in God?
I believe in the natural order of the universe.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Air?, no kidding. Myself, for without me, there can be no life.

16] Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
It is never a need, although it is an innate nature of any lifeform ( of which i am ) to reproduce. Well, lets just say, it will come when it is meant to be, no point needing a gf just to justify to others that 'hey i can get one' or that i aint gay lol.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Try something new!. What is the point in life if u dont try new stuff.

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
Someone deserving of their friendship and respect.

19] What age do you wanna die at?
If i could, i never want to die, there is just so many stuff to do and so little time. But if i must pick an age, 140 would be good, can break the world record in the process, if i am still generally in the pink of health. No point surviving as a vegetable lol.

20] What is your current favourite song?
Is It You, by Cassie from Step Up 2 soundtrack

21] What is your all time favourite movie?
Tied between Star Wars Episode 3 and Lion King.

INSTRUCTIONS: remove 1 question from above and type in your own question. tag 8 people to do this quiz! ( i didnt remove any but i added the last question )

I'll tag: Junhong, lillmissjoys, WJC, Jiarong, Gab, Soh Ee ( if she is even reading this lol ), GH, Fong ( again if he is even reading this haha ).

Napfa test, getting house exco logistics

2008-04-06T00:56:00.008+08:00

Had my napfa test this morning, got Gold, surprised myself with the 8 chin ups that i did ( yes i am proud of it ). Never did so much before in my entire life, although i know compared to some of you out there, 8 is a piece of cake. Got 50 for my sit ups, with a little help from Jo, initially got a D for my sit and reach but asked CK to help me stretch ( thanks ), and manage to scrap a D. shuttle run, drifted as usual, eroding the sole of my adizer and got 9.5. Standing board jump, managed a C. After that, we had our last item, the 2.4 run. The sun was like blazing down at 10am when we ran, probably contributed a couple of seconds to my timing. Got 9.03 AGAIN! cant seem to break the 9 minute barrier. used Chirstopher as a pacer for the 1st 5 rounds, ut when he sprinted for the last 100 m, i was flat already, so lagged behind. When i heard his timing of 8.59 being called out, i knew that 9 was beyond me haha. Nevermind shall train harder for next year in NS.

After that me and Benjamin went to get logistics stuff from the army market at beach road for the upcoming house com camp ( its on friday ). managed a wee bit of bargaining such as going around the shops until we manage to reduce the initial price of the lightsticks per piece form $1 to 50 cents. Job well done. Was seriously exhausted from all the walking when i was going home, was semi concious slipping in and out of sleep on the bus ride home, and by then (3pm) i havent had anything since dinner the previous day. No joke with Napfa in the morning.

Filled in the NS pre-registeration thingy a couple of hours ago, booked on 17th of July with the rest of the 0713 guys, so any of my friends if you are reading this and wanna follow, this is the date. seriously long. My helmet size is Large, lol, big head ( does it = big brain= big intellegence? lol ). The sizes are pretty erratic, e.g. my pants size are a 31 but my swimming trunks are a Large. Hope the attire fits when the time comes to put them on next year. Think i am gonna start on alcohols and whatever is the other chapter tutorials today. Damn, itsbeen a long time since i touched homework on a sunday.

It was lost,
back from the dead it came,
yet do i still want it?
I am not sure

I learned the lesson that great men cultivate love, and that only little men cherish a spirit of hatred. I learned that assistance given to the weak makes the one who gives it strong; and that oppression of the unfortunate makes one weak. - Brooker T. Washington

And life continues...

2008-04-05T00:17:00.027+08:00

The usual mundane week, with a few intermissions of spice to at least allow my life to have some colour. Block test, haha the results i got were quite nonsensical, no point elaborating. Even my 'strengths' singularly, GENERAL PAPER also screwed up pretty bad, you get the idea?

Just now headed to my family/ cousin's chalet/ bungalow at Pasir Ris. Not your usual Costa Sands or Downtown East resorts. This is like a real huge bungalow. Double storeys with its own lawn and all. To get there took 53 after my training to MJC? then walked all the way in to Pasir Ris beach, yea abit mad to most of you folks out there but its nice. Walking down the secluded path down to the main beach and waterfront, with the vegetation encroaching your sides. It was serene to say the least. Dad directed me to walk East along the beach, then found out that actually i was supposed to head West. Spent a good 45 mins to 1 hour walking before i found the chalet, but nevertheless, it was fun. Had dinner there, then chionged home at around 10.30 because i have a seriously overdue Health Rep task to do and send to the teacher-in-charge. Did not bathe for 1 whole day, including after training till around 11.30pm. Do not think will fill in the NS registration form today, too tired and too little time. Tomorrow still have to report to school at 7.30 AM!!! ON A SATURADAY!!! for my NAPFA test, hope i can finally squeeze my 2.4 to below 9 mins, but given my current form, it'll be tought. Damn, i consider waking up anytime before 12pm on Saturdays a pity, and 6.15am is downright sinful.

Cindy caughted a lizard on Thursday, and i played with it a little. Quite cool, maybe next time when i grow up and get my own house, gonna keep one of those. Like how many of you can boast to have a pet lizard lol. Cant entertain that thought now, mom will probably kill me, then the lizard if i ever bring one home. ( just lizards, not snakes or bugs or anything else ).

Unofficial Dragon House and Ct-0713 mascot for 1 hour on thursday 3rd April 2008

And yes, in case u are wondering, that red stuff on my hand is lizard's blood, it was bleeding on its left fore arm when me and Cindy found it already, probably got stepped on by those people exiting the lecture theatres, so dont blame me for animal cruelty. Let it go in the end, lol what else can we do?

Also, guess what? I am actually looking forward to Mr pun's physics lecture coming up next week haha, abit of a miracle, for me to look forward to a lecture. If u feel depressed and in need of entertainment, as well as learn or recap ur physics, go look at the online physics lectures for quantum physics ( if there are any ). Sure cracks you up. Credit to Mr Pun.

I am a grandiose insignificance,
Believe me

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that gives value to survival. - C.S. Lewis

Sports Carnival and more

2008-03-30T23:57:00.005+08:00

Had our annual sports carnival yesterday, or isit 2 days ago, considering that its monday now lol. It was held at CCAB ( Co-Curricular Actavities Branch ) near the botanical gardens. Quite glad that my class turned up full force, besides those that had official reasons for their absentism. Had touch rugby 1st, in which i was involved, drew with 0714 8-8 despite holding a sizeable lead initially. Pretty sore about it haha. Waited for the orienteering people to come back before we had frisbee. Trounced 0715 10-2. Haha, credits to Chek Keng for the 'playmaking', and to Soh Ee for scoring all 10 points if i am not wrong. After the sports day ened, came what i would bill as the main highlight of the day lol. After we were dismissed our class decided to bypass waiting for a bus and walk directly to Newton MRT station ourselves, but we badly missjudged the distance lol. Ended up walking for aorund 1 hour if i aint wrong. Tiring but i wouldnt say that it was not fun. I mean, it IS a form of quality time that we could spend as a class together. Walking that distance together provided us with many opportunities for complains and conversations, and also allowed us to past through an area of Singapore which i am not familiar with. Such experiences are hard to come by, hope u guys treasure it. After that took the train and lunched at plaza singapura with the class. Sparked a running debate on the fate of the earth with jiacheng, ykm, amos and hong hao. Went home and wasted the rest of the day away haha

A division starts tomorrow ( or today? ), reporting to school at 9, getting released from lessons at 11.30. Sry jiacheng and gab and hazel, haha cant join you all crapping at our usual table during physics and GP on mondays.

I miss the life i had
Do u feel it too?
Show me a sign
constrained, confused, tired
unrelated

My friend, if I could give you one thing, I would give you the ability to see yourself as others see you... then you would realize what a truly special person you are.
-Barbara A. Billings

More ponderings

2008-03-20T00:20:00.008+08:00

Will not be dedicating another post to the block test, since there is no point as most of you readers would have experienced it yourself, and my potential results i'm sure most of u can guess/ infer already.

Rather, went through a couple of my friend's blog just now. As a handful of them have been in existance ( the blogs, not the people lol ) for a couple of years now, browsing through their histories looking at random episodes of their life which is posted online, i got struck by that ineluctable process, called change. Looking at some of their entries, their writing style. Most if not all have grown mature . The blog postings too morphed into content which reflected their age. What took hold of me the most, was their photos ( as they say, a picture says a thousand words ). Isnt it amazing that a young innocent cute little girl can turn into a ravishing beauty, or a scrawny little kid can turn into a guy oozing masculinity. Most people realise change, but not all awknowledge it. It is a process with an infinite inertia, this change. Sometimes, dont you all wish that you could halt or slow the process, to take a breather. To enable you to appreciate yourself now, and everything around you, before change takes control again. How many of you wished that things were 'just like before'? Its no good living in the past, but wouldnt it be nice to just sit down by the beach or bishan park at night ( could use some company ), and enjoy the calm. Tap into the oasis of your inner self and just stone as you do not participate in change for awhile. Reflect on your life. What is its purpose? ( i mean life's purpose not YOUR life ). ok i digress. yea

random load of nonsense my brain cocked up trying to study physics, dont comment on it haha, just pull the whole disorganized mess out of my cranium and dumped it here.

leave you all with a quote from Mother Teresa i dug up:
The success of love is in the loving- it is not in the result of loving. Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person, but whether it turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done.
, indulge

Airplane Jokes

2008-03-17T19:40:00.003+08:00

After every flight, pilots fill out a form, called a gripe sheet which tells mechanics about problems with the aircraft. The mechanics correct the problems, document their repairs on the form, and then pilots review the gripe sheets before the next flight. Never let it be said that ground crews lack a sense of humor. Here are some maintenance complaints submitted by pilots and the solutions recorded by maintenance engineers. By the way, the airline these came from is the only major airline that has never, ever, had an accident.

Pilot: Left inside main tire almost needs replacement. Engineers: Almost replaced left inside main tire.

Pilot: Test flight OK, except auto-land very rough. Engineers: Auto-land not installed on this aircraft.

Pilot: Something loose in cockpit. Engineers: Something tightened in cockpit.

Pilot: Dead bugs on windshield. Engineers: Live bugs on back-order.

Pilot: Autopilot in altitude-hold mode produces a 200 feet per minute descent. Engineers: Cannot reproduce problem on ground.

Pilot: Evidence of leak on right main landing gear. Engineers: Evidence removed.

Pilot: DME volume unbelievably loud. Engineers: DME volume set to more believable level.

Pilot: Friction locks cause throttle levers to stick. Engineers: That's what friction locks are for.

Pilot: IFF inoperative in OFF mode. Engineers: IFF always inoperative in OFF mode.

Pilot: Suspected crack in windshield. Engineers: Suspect you're right.

Pilot: Number 3 engine missing. Engineers: Engine found on right wing after brief search.

Pilot: Aircraft handles funny. Engineers: Aircraft warned to straighten up, fly right, and be serious.

Pilot: Target radar hums. Engineers: Reprogrammed target radar with lyrics.

Pilot: Mouse in cockpit. Engineers: Cat installed.

Pilot: Noise coming from under instrument panel. Sounds like a midget pounding on something with a hammer. Engineers: Took hammer away from midget

Koped from Cepheus's blog, hope you dont mind :P
A stress reliever for all of you studying for your blocks and readers of this blog

Block Test, Day 1 aftermath

2008-03-17T19:18:00.004+08:00

Blocks day 1. GP was bittersweet. Finally had that omph, that feeling of empowerment while i was writing my essay. Last time i experienced it was during O lvls itself. It is the feeling of writing because the point that you are expounding is worth your time, your ink, to convince the marker. Not the usual feeling of writing just for the sake of filling up the blank sheet of paper i am given that i get all too often. Got the feeling that i wrote out of point for it but who cares? i enjoyed writing it and it is all that matter. To Gab: ( although i know that y0ur com is down and you probably wont be reading this ) just because i wrote the same topic as you doesnt mean u confirm die haha, dont rate me that highly, have confidence in your own work, in the believes that you are leaving in ink in your essays. Whatever i do will not really matter then.

Now, for comprehension. Probably the worse comprehension i did this year. Doubt i can repeat my common test performance. As most of you should know, i like to give excessively long winded answers haha, e.g. writing one whole paragraph to a 2 mark question. ( My all time record was 166 words for a 1 mark questions did in sec 3, yes i counted lol ). As for today, no matter how i take a look at most of the questions all that i could come up with are short 1 or 2-liners. My reason for coming up with long answers is to try and cover the question from all angles, whichever stance the marker chooses to take, but it is an impossiblity for this compre. Used to derive a sense of security from those long answers i guess. Not anymore. The AQ, big time screw up man. When i saw the 1st part of the question i was like 'whoohoo, finally an AQ which i think i can score decently'. Then saw the part asking for 2 measures. A couple of chosen swear words ran across my mind. Spent the greater part of the 20 mins i had trying to figure out 2 examples ( did not give in the end ) and crapping out an answer.

Break between GP and econs, was trying to study econs then gave up and went to the 2nd level walkway above the atrium and crapped with JC, Gab, Hazel, GH .. and gang. At the requst of Hazel and Gab, will try to type posts that are more reader friendly lol. Lucky econs isnt too bad, but dont think i'll pass...

Writing this to put off studying for maths.

Before i go, rant abit haha. A div is starting next thursday AFTER MY LAST PAPER. crap cant experience the post blocks euphoria, and friday probably have training ARGH.

ok people, time to go and salvage some decency in a failing grade for maths tomorrow

Personal lackings

2008-03-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

Awhile ago, while waiting for my dawdling printer to churn out my maths remedial notes for some quick reference to the stuff taught in J1, i took out my 'little oxford dictionary' from my bookself and started erm taking a peek into its contents... only to find out how limited my range of vocabulary is. Out of the 37 words ( incuding the explanations for A and a ) on page one of the dictionary. I swear that i ahev never encountered like 7 of them. ( aardvark, abaft, abase, abeyance, abjure, ablution, abnegate ). Feel free to check out the meanings if u want. Gotta brush up on my language/ vocab/ expression ability if i even wanna get that distinction ( or even a B ) for GP, considering that i WILL NOT go and memorise the contents of the lecture notes given out during GP lectures, :P sry HH, not my style.

Time is dwindling
the rallying call grows louder
but wait, a lull in the trumpetting takes hold
now is not the time

Positioning...

2008-03-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

OK, i am bored. So here is an indirect explanation for meaning of my blog title and address

my position now:

-Bishan
-Singapore
-South-East Asia
-Asia
-Earth
-Solar System
-Local Interstellar Cloud
-Gould Belt
-Orion Arm/ Local Spur
-Milky Way Galaxy
-Local Group
-Virgo Supercluster
-Universe

Get the picture?

Progress?

2008-03-13T22:31:00.004+08:00

What i have done so far for the block tests.
1) Read through all that is required for chem ( not memorise! )
2) organise my physics and maths notes ( i.e. put them in a place where i dont have to dig through my entire history of notes to find them, and filled in the blanks )
3) Read through abit of physics

Use all your well honed GP skills and infer. I think i am in for a shitload of crap when taking the block tests. Speaking of GP and by extension english, WHY DONT NANYANG OFFER H2 ENGLISH LANGUAGE. haiz, my subject combi would be so different from now if nanyang offered that subject. Also was made aware of the fact that none of the subjects i am taking now are theoratically my strong subjects. meaning i didnt get an A1 for any of them. Should have staked my future on my humanities instead. At least the humanities allow for a certain limit for personal expression, and the potential for the usage of ur well of general knowledge. Nope, wont be regretting it

For the 2nd day in a row was stuck at a busstop with rain pouring down all around me. 1st was on wednesday, after i went to YC's house to borrow is physics notes to fill up the blanks in mine, and today was again stuck at busstop waiting for bus to go meet the soccer guys at amk.

Could it be you, cascada
frog rocks ( hey it rhymes ^_^ )
I'll deliver when it matters, and it doesnt...yet

March Holidays?

2008-03-11T18:59:00.002+08:00

Upate, to kill the rot starting to form here. Well for the 1st time in a long long time, i actually sat down, to read my notes and try to make sense of them yesterday, and today, without msn on, or music, or football manager running in my com's background. Havent progressed to the doing part yet, but one step at a time. Prays that this last minute investment of time ( sorta ) into my studies would be enough for me to scrap through this blocks. Chemistry and Physics for now seems.. i said SEEMS, so if i still dont get the result, dont blame me haha, manageable. But maths, GOSH! too lil time to practice to get my skills up to date with promos standard, much less blocks lol. ( yes i know, its my fault for slacking, but nope i do not regret it ;) )

So looking forward to after the blocks, after A division, and after stepping down from house com. Reminds me of the time in sec 4 after i stepped down from having band practices. I actually felt lesser of a burden althought the O levels were creeping up on me after relinquishing my band duties. Time will be in abundance, but as to what use will the time be channelled into. we'll see about that.

Looking forward to soccer tmr with benedict and his friends at st wilfreds. Gonna be dead tomorrow haha, soccer from 11 to 1, then training from 3 to 7. Wish me luck peopl. As a sidenote, its been raining nonstop since sunday late afternoon ( i think ). After soccer with Carlton, Nigel and gang, went home, the heavens just opened up. Raining intermittently every now and then for the pass 2 days. Love the sky now, its on the verge of night, with the dark hues escalating the onset of darkness, with the air still and full of threat.

A silver of my random musings...

People

2008-02-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

Have any of you been sick of the front that we all put up everyday?. To a certain extent, everyone has to put up a facade, and not let his raw emotions play across his expressions, his actions. We put on one face of us when we are with our families, when we are in school, when we are out with our friends. Even among friends, good friends and best friends for the matter, you could and never would unleash ur inner self. Its sickening. Yet its for the collective good, and presumably your own good. Imagine, if i toldeveryone around me how i truely feel, i'll probably get murdered or something the next day ( not that i have any anamiousity [ bro koped my dictionery, cant check, pardon the spelling ] ). I wish i could, but know i cannot. Would anyone be willing to drop all pretences and live their lives truely and as expressively as they deem it? Tired of all this.

Being random

A Performance

2008-02-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

A musician will enjoy playing, and feel that all he has practiced is worthwhile, if there is just one audience who appreciates his music, his effort. Similarly, a sportsperson will continue his efforts and try his very best, if there is one spectator who awknowledges his efforts. It may sound idealistic, but its not. I know, for i was/am both of them. When the time comes, and either is obstructed from indulging in their crafts via pure dumb luck, or something not of their doing, it will be a real sad day.

I'll quit soccer if i am not selected for the next 2 games ( if we get into teh finals ) or if i am like only given the last 10 mins to play. Yea putting it here so.. i cannot run away from it. Good luck to haikal lol. Btw the new predators rocks, its damn damn solid.

and lastly, screw him. If u wanna see me living up to expectations, then bloody hell come earlier next time. was enjoying till you came along.

Dont worry u guys, i am NOT emo :D

Life so far

2008-02-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

OK, looong haitus, if any of u have been following this blog, i apologize haha for the long delay in posts. Was really busy with tests and matches and school stuff to blog, and yea too lazy :P.

For my dear classmates, bear with me. This week was crazy, had SPA, 4 tests ( of which i think i am failing 3 ), and 3 football matches. SERIOUSLY DRAINING. For the tests, i only read abit for econs, didnt do anything for the rest, and no it isnt something to boast about. Got back physics today, miraculously passed it, many thanks to hazel for letting me copy during the class test, i think i passed cos i remembered those stuff that i copied, no bad huh. Whoever said that in copying you will nvr learn clearly hasnt seen the finer side of this art form ( u need skill to copy ). I aint gonna start studying yet, its just not the time. The time will come, but not yet. Although my results may seem scary, dont worry i got it under control, for those that are concerned bout me ( if any ).

Dedicatiing a paragraph to those who complain about JC life, no one in particular. Do not complain, savour every moment of it. The good, the bad, for these times may not be with you for much longer. Failing a test is an experience, scoring As is also one, live through the process, dont drag your feet through it, whats the point. You got to enjoy the studying process, the playing process, this moments all give value to your life. A sheer slacker or a pure mugger would only ingest a bare minimal part of the JC process. Very soon, for the guys, you all will be in the army, and the girls, university. Would you all still have the time and effort at your disposal to live life with the minimal of responsibilities, to live life with relative carefree abandon. think about it.

and as a last point to add, my soccer form is like sliding ever increasingly, haiz. Anyone got a remedy?.

New Year Shopping

2008-01-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

Went out on Sunday with yang, JC and GH. The objective was to get my new year .. as in CHINESE new year shopping done. In desperate need of new clothes. Me, yang and JC arrived bout 1 hour late. paiseh GH, and he went to get some stuff 1st. Met up around 3 and went around orchad to look for a nice shirt or something. Didnt really see anything that i liked, except for a shirt from Armani Exchage. Wait lemme correct that, its a polo tee, but its design is pretty unique. But its price tag is like $112!!!!. for a polo tee. I aint gonna blow that kinda money on one piece of shirt, well maybe not now ( hmmm grad night might reconsider ). So in the end went home empty handed. Along the way Saw 2 lamborghini Gallardos parked side by side, damn cool sia. For pictures, you might want to check out jiacheng's blog.

Dream: Own a lamborghini Reventon, or at least either a Murcielago or Gallardo.

Lamborghini Reventon

Pondering...

2008-01-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

Is an intelligent person who fails to or refuses to make full use of his potential still considered intelligent?

btw did a word count for my previous post... 2293 words. not bad haha

Orientation

2008-01-12T16:27:00.000+08:00

Orientation 2008 was a blast, haha. It might be abit wrong for me to post about orientation about 1 week after its conclusion, but wanted to do a good long and details piece and couldnt afford the time.

As an OGL i throughly enjoyed the process, of working with the other OGLs and council, to organise the J1s, and never would regret the time i spent missing lessons ( when was i a studying sort of person anw haha ). Many many thanks to my OG, OG 27, ATHENA OGLs and the council. Met many new great friends and people, from this experience. Will breakdown the orientation process below lol.

Pre orientation (1): Got the news the house exco would have to send 4 people to be olympian i.cs sometime during the application period for OGLs. After one of the meetings, we decided to send me, Chris, Shi Xuan, and De Wei. Although i applied independly as well. At 1st was pretty afraid that Mr Pun wouldnt approve my application, as my attitude wasnt that great during his lessons, but things turned out well in the end. Then came the sentosa recce trip where 1 OGL per group is supposed to acconmpany the student council to sort of go throught their route to take during the actual orientation sentosa trip. Found out that i'll be grouped with the other house com members haha -_-", and with Zhi Yi and Chu Yi as our guides. Went for lunch with fong and some other OGLs at Vivo after. basically my OGs route was practically like walking to and fro the beachfront of sentosa 4 times. Not very interesting. Went late for training because of that, luckily, missed the intervals haha. Then on the same day, the contact list for J1s was out, and so had to call them ove rthe weekends. Remembered Chloe and Doris bombarding my phone with messages on who to call ( and i havent even met them yet ) WHILE I WAS AT TRAINING haha. like 7 unread messages, each with changing instructions on who to complie and call i was abit stunned haha, cos i havent read my mail and didnt know the contact list was out... i was at training, for goodness sake.

Pre orientation (2): Up next is the OGL workshop, held over the last thursday and friday of the year. Had my maths test in the morning, WONDERFUL start, its gonna be single digit, i swear. Met the other ATHENA OGLs then, quite a fun bunch of people. learned the mass dance .... no title, just called the 30th mass dance lol. It isnt too bad, but still prefer the superstar. Many thanks to Meixuan for being my dance partner. Had briefings about what to bring for the orientation, and other logitics/ admin stuff. Got notes about stuff that will be happening during the orientation as well as tried out games that will be played during the orientation. Athena won like the 1st 3 games haha, then it was all downhill....Damn Tedson for taking a bite out of every single biscuit lol, and we had to pass it back via our mouths, erm abit hard to describe, but OGLs reading this ( if any ) should know what i am saying. Found out that tedson, eric, glenn, and kelvin played soccer, nice one. JC abit hard to find people who enjoy a deccent game of soccer, so went to have a game with them after the workshop. Chloe designed our OG flag, not bad but, is that a picture of a male greek god that she substituted for athena? Had a torrid time tying our flag to the pole, phew lucky it didnt fall off the pole or anything during the orientation. Had to come up with a entrance for the 1st day of orientation during the later part of the workshop. It kinda screwed up abit when i found out that Hestia was doing almost exactly the same thing. So had to drag everyone back on monday, haha sorry to get the entrance settled. Went to play lan after the monday session with those athena OGLs. Rats + magnum + me + terrorist = owngae haha. although i got pwned in DotA, gotta thank Tedson for giving me the Aegis TWICE lol.

Orientation day 1: woke up at 5am, had to reach school by 6am to practice the new and improved grand entrance. managed not to be late and pretty much everyone that could made it on time, was glad. Got our briefing from the council and then the J1s were streaming in. Had to take attendace and get their shirt sizes for those who didnt give or cannot be contacted, introduced ourselves ( me doris and chloe ) and tried my darnest best to remember their names. After all its 20 people, you shld get credit for trying. After our entracnce, which luckily went smoothly, the OGLs went for lunch while the J1s went for subject talks. the talk kinda overan by 40 mins, so the OGLs were like languishing outside the hall, dead bored ( and the J1s thought they were bored inside, at least they had stuff to listen to ). After they got released for lunch, i brought them to the atrium to settle down and eat. Although technically they were not supposed to eat there, but canteen was so darn crowded. imagine all of the J1 population with a couple of J2s eating in the small canteen. Had a nice chat with some of the guys. The rest of day was pretty much a blur now. Basically played ice breakers, let everyone know each other, played more games, learnt cheers and stuff. Not forgetting teaching teh J1s the mass dance ( the council did most of the teaching ). kind of funny to see them stumbling ove rthe steps and occasionally each other, when teh OGLs all so used to teh dance already. Tried to get them hyped up for Sentosa trip the next day. Went home exhausted. Its pretty tough trying to up peoples' spirits after starting the day of with a 2/3+ hours worth of subject talks. Manage to get an OG contact list out and printed by the end of the day. 1st time i slept at 10.30 in a long long while.

Orientation day 2: Jun Jek as he told me the previous day didnt turn up, well at least he was nice enough to drop me a message haha. Lazy to walk in sentosa -_-". Reported at 6.30am, was slightly late. As usual, talk by council, J1s coming in, taught cheers, olympian time, mass dance in the morning ( i think so...). After that we headed to SENTOSA!. Oh and before that teh OG decided upon Macdonalds for our lunch. So we ordered macdelivery to Sentosa. Proud to announce that our OG was the only OG to get our food delivered to Sentosa :). Our OG was basically split into 2 groups, going via 2 different busses. My group went 1st, while Chloe and Doris followed the 2nd group. Bythe time we reached Sentosa they havent even set off yet -_-. Got the bus to stop at the end of the causeway to Sentosa to collect our lunch, but it turned out that the delivery guy was waiting on the other side of the causeway, so got a few of the girls along to help drag our lunch back to the bus. Long walk haha, :P my bad. After that we moved to Palawan beach to wait for the other half of the OG to arrive as our 1st station was there. Had our lunch then proceeded to the games. Too lazy to describe the games in detail so will do with a couple of highlights. Basically had fun playing teh games, and teaching them cheers and stuff, can feel that t he OG was gelling together more. Hestia got lost for our 2nd station, how did they get lost lol, just take the bus. made us wait for half an hour. Taught them more cheers to pass the time. During that time discovered a potential OGL, erm Leonard haha. Invented OG 27 trademark cheer. crapped alot, walked alot. Did cheers at the upper roofless deck of the bus we took. Shouting 'welcome to Singapore' to a couple of tourist we met. Our group arrived the latest towards the end. We had a parade by our Olympian eye candies and a debrief before we were dismissed. Forgot to mention, Morgan and Darren was our eye candy for the intra olympian preliminaries the 1st day. Pity didnt get selected. At night, teh OG went for dinner at vivo, walked from Siloso bech all the way to Vivo, wonderful experience... Darren went for tuition :( nice one... while Doris was abit sick, and Chloe went to see her bf lol. Had a nice talk among ourselves, carpped about the pull up guy at vivo did mass dance on vivo's roof ( will never forget ;) ). Then went home around 10, cos long day ahead the next day. Discovered that Charlton lives in Bishan too, although the other side.

Orientation day 3: The usual stuff in the morning. The council taught the trad. dance today ( or was it yesterday? ) damn funny see-ing all the J1s dare not put their hands on their partners waist. She aint infectious for goodness sake. Consolidated our combined olympian cheer for the cheering competition, during olympian time. Many thanks for eric and emelyn for getting everyone hyper and enthu doing the cheers. Most of our cheers revolved around the 'war' theme yea. pretty nice. Also invented a couple of new ones like the tokyo drift cheer and stuff. Played many water games during the day, some in the OG got real drenched :P haha sara worst victim. Lucky i stayed mostly dry. and our sissors paper stone too power already, cannot even lose once, and we had to lose to win, eh confusing?. Choose the dancing queen and king. Realise d that Elyssa can dance, not bad. Guohao told me his olympian confirm win haha, we'll see about that. Chose RJ and her partner cos she was simply awesome and she was comfortable dancing with him. Practiced our cheers, did our haka ( the original one ) for the rest of the day. We were based at the grandstand. Managed to get quite a number of volunteers from among the J1s to lead themselves. Thanks to those from OG 27 who came down, although i cant taotally recall who came down le. After that is dinner time, ate at the atrium when it was raining. Then the OGLs had to go practice the haka and get everyone back to the hall in a pretty short time. Didnt manage to finish my food. It sucks, lumpy rice and stuff, Being brutally honest here, pizza from last year was so much better, but that was just one small minor blip in the whole experience. After that was the cheering competition and the dancing king and queen competition. Cheering, gotta mention ATHENA was awesome although we didnt win. the J1s and the OGLs gave their all, pulled off the haka. Although eventually poseidon won, congrats to them they did well. Following that up, was teh dancing king and queen competition. The 1st 2 pairs of contestants were quickly eliminated. Leaving Athena and another olympian. Seriously the dancing competition this year is hardcore. Owns the standard of our batch. RJ was like Pwnage. Nvr knew the human body can move like that. The other couple was not bad too. The Athena girl and teh girl from the other house had like 2 rematches, because teh judges cant decide between those 2. Although in the end the girl from athena won. We kinda got the feeling that she'll win when they played the Toyko Drift music for them to dance to, We based one of Athena's trademark cheers on the tune. After that we had some awards. Athena got the best olympian for the points chalked up for the games played at Sentosa. OG 27 GOT THE BEST OG for ATHENA.. WHOOHOO. After that, it was DISCO NIGHT, danced and jumped like no one's business. Had lotsa fun. Did one final mass dance at the end of disco night, couldnt find my regular dance partner so danced with janelle and stephanie instead, sry meixuan :P. Had a debrief, group photo taking before heading to chomp chomp to eat with my OG/ ATHENA OGLs. Everyone was super high during this time, the OGLs basically couldnt stop cheering at the bustop althought it was like 10 at night. Did teh haka at every bus that came by haha. people must have really thought we were crazy. Went with them to chomp chomp. Joined my Og until the left then go and find the OGLs. Ate a couple of leftover sticks of satay, then went home with fong and joycelyn.

Its really an unforgettable experience ( sounds like primary school compo haha, and very cliche, but true ). I mean, everyone was great, the OGLs the OG. Couldnt ask for a 'higher' bunch of people to be Athena OGLs. Had breakfast on monday morning at macs, having mass convos at night almost everyday after orientation. I would take ages if i mentioned everyone by name, so wont. But everyone one of you did play a part in my whole experience of orientation so, i thank you all for that, not forgetting the council who made sure there were not hiccups along the way with their organisation, and Yilong our council attache, and Inez the OIC for orientation 2008. Cheers

Service

2007-12-31T22:42:00.001+08:00

1st, lets not forget. HAPPY NEW YEAR to all those who are reading :D

Just went out for dinner with my family, the food was great, and the prices reasonable. However, what struck me about that restaurant, and compelled me to write a post on them is not about the food or ambience. Rather, it was instead the quality of the service of the staff there that impressed me. Ok, a general description of the place: its not a restaurant in the general sense of the word, as in those air conditioned, high/ mid class places located in an upmarket building with lavish decor. In fact, its enviornment is more like a typical hawker centre, with all the grime, dirt and smells associated with it. The floor is pretty dirty, the place looks slightly run down... yea you get the idea. The food is also like what an average 'zhi cha' store in yourneighbourhood coffee shop/ hawker centre serves up, tasty, but not to die for, with a few 'specialities' ( including fish head steamboat ) thrown in. Yet, the quality of service the staff provided was excellent. One of the waiters ( again, not in the strict sense of the word ) basically dressed like your typical 'ah beng' with the dyed hair and the baggy jeans, yet, when responding to the customers, he was very earnest and sincere, while we were eating, he even dropped by to ask us if the stock for the steamboat is alright. When complying to our table's request for extra rice, taking of orders, settling the bill, the staff were always efficient and you get the feeling that they were happy for your patronage, and that they valued you as a customer, unlike the countless establishments whose staff i have encountered serving you with a gloomy face, as if they were impatient to get their business with you over and done with.

Overall, decent food, price and great service, wouldnt mind dining there again. The only thing lacking was the enviornment but that can be negated in light of theother plus points. Its called Hong Kong Road Fishhead Steamboat if i remembered correctly, and is located somewhere very close to the Singapore General Hospital, in outram. Do pay it a visit if you wanna look for food, and have a brain drain

Cheers 2008

Brain and Computers

2007-12-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

Rencently did a comprehension on computers and human beings and how computers should be given the propensity to err. The article mention computers having the ability to outperform humans in every department with their superior processing speed and other 'qualities'.

However, take a step out of the fast lane, and use your in my opinion underestimated processing unit in your skull. Are today's modern computers truely superior?. yes computers are capable of being programmed to do enormous mathematical calculations, having the ability to consider the possible moves of every chess piece in a chess game several turns ahead. it might apper that we are outclassed outfought and outthought by today's computers.

Lets take another perspective shall we, your brain has to merge information coming from over a million ( or possibly more ) sensors from your entire body ( courtesy of your skin ), as well as visual, audio, imput from your eyes and ears to decide upon a best course of action for something. It has to constantly maintain your body's stable equlibrium to allow you all to stand and move without falling over ( seems effortless right? ). In addition to sensing air pressure, processing communication, controlling your body functions etc.. to name a few. and these are the stuff it has to do 24/7 without stopping, i mean after all when u are lying on ur bed resting, you can still feel your clothes on you, sense the wind, breathe air right?. The best thing is, it almost never crashes :D. if it somehow crashes, then either A) you're dead, B) you're brain dead, or C) you're insane. How often do you see a computer crash, or got brought down by a virus.

The thing is we humans have our processing power directed at analysing a multitude of totally different inputs as well as generating our own output. As opposed to a chess computer, lets say, which have its entire focus diverted to winning the said game of chess. It does not care about its own survival, whether its ca catch a virus or not, whether there is a fault in its programming or not, does it have the capability to even care in the 1st place? i guess not.

maybe one day where we can clone a human brain and genetically engineer it so that all its energies would be directed towards a particular process, can we appreciate its true potential. for now though, i prefer to think that my brain reigns supreme over any computers :D

Cheers, below are some random facts i lifted from wikipedia

common misconceptions:

- Humans use only 10% or less of their brain: Even though many mysteries of brain function persist, every part of the brain has a known function

- New neurons cannot be created, they only die as one ages. In fact, new neurons can grow within the mature adult brain; this process is known as neurogenesis. Regardless of neuron growth or death, brain function and capabilities can be learned and developed throughout life.

- The brain cells do not duplicate at all after it has developed (around late childhood). Although most of the brain does not grow, the cells in the hypothalamus are still growing.The human brain loses 50,000 brain cells a day after you turn 30.

Me and Blog

2007-12-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

OK, hi people. seriously i have no idea who will be reading this but here goes. Never thought i would create a blog ( actually i didnt ) or post in one. Upon the persistent requests from ykm for me to have a blog, lol and with his considerable assistance this blog was born. Hmm lets get one thing about this blog straght, actually a couple of things rather

1) I will post only when and if i feel like it no point writing for the sake of writing. So, posting will be quite erractic, sry to disappoint anyone out there hoping for regular updates.

2) There will be zero posts on my private life, e.g. my family, my friends, what i did yesterday that sort of stuff. class outings, maybe.. if there is a demand for it. This is for privacy reasons, and to avoid sensitive issues from arising, and cases of accidently washing your dirty linen in public.

3) School stuff would also be at a minimum ( dont you guys/girls already have enough of school? an average of 35hrs a week is pretty high by my standards already so yup ).

To end off my 1st post. hope you guys find this blog interesting entertaining, and enjoy reading it.