Its tricky

Woke up at 8 o'clock on a SATURDAY ( i can sleep to 2pm if i had nothing on and i slept the the previous night, just go ask my mom ) to go to NTU at boon lay, BOON LAY for the 112 km thing i am going for next weekend, with a few of my male classmates, namely gab, jc, hh, jh, gh and wh. Took 52 form bishan to jurong east interchange, 1 hour. trip from jurong to boonlay, 20 minutes, bus from boonlay to NTU 15 minutes, got lost and walked to our destination, 20 mins. Guess what, wasted all this time to attend a 15 MINUTES briefing. Crazy man. Thats not even counting the return trip. They did not even distribute the event singlet like they said they were going to because of some problems with the printer of the singlets. Screwed up. Ok, its going to be a round island cycling trip, taking bout 10 to 12 hours, starting at 6am in the morning ( not sure ). Checkpoints are at East Coast, West Coast, NTU, Kranji, Yishun, Serangoon, Changi, and back to East Coast. Did i miss out any? You readers can infer the route lol. Going to be hell lots of fun. After that the people who went, me, wh, gab and hh went to jurong point, ate lots of macs due to me bringing coupons that gave them free items if they bought the extra value meal. gab and wh took macflurry, me and hh took nuggets. Full brunch ( i skipped breakfast as usual ), then chionged arcade. Blew 7 bucks each, between me and hh on a new dinosaur shooter game. Damn fun, and gab was controling our movements in the game lol. So all 3 of us kind of played at the same time. Rushed home after that.

Uncle came to pick me up at around 4 for a trip to the new bridges at south east of singapore. Parked at telok blangah, walked all the way to hortpark with my cousin and their parents. Quite tiring but fun haha. The view from henderson bridge is magnificent. Hope can find the time to go back there again and walk the entire distance to west coast park. Along the way, some idiot decided to put a mentos into my water bottle. It dissolved and now my nike water bottle insides are coated with a layer of sticky mentos essence after i empted the water. nice job.

I swear i'll get my physics SPA done by tomorrow, no more time to lose.

The moon have been looking great these few days haha, If you have the chance, do glance upwards once in awhile and admire its beauty.

GP on friday, hiaz. When people have expectations, u have to try your best to live up to them lol. Yet, on hindsight, i felt i chose the wrong question, because its darn tricky. "Never think that war, no matter how necessary nor justified, is not a crime'. Do you agree? I mean, if it is justified, then it cannot be considered a crime right? Dunno lah, may luck befall me. AQ was crappy as usual, hate the short time they give us to write an argument, and why the hell do all AQs have to be relevant to your society, ie. Singapore. Speaking of which, yay, we got pedra branca haha.

I think i am in need of a break, but then i havent really been studying. Nope not very much at all. Its paradoxical, i am hoping for a break this holidays yet i am wishing that i dont get any, for taking a rest means less time to catch up on work way behind. confused. GSS is on, hope to get my music/video player and some wadrobe refreshments during this period, if i can spare the time. Oh and i need a pencil case before the mid years damnit.

Long post haha, take your time sorry to make you read all these, if you actually bothered lol

I am not going to make the same mistake twice.

In this uncertain space between birth and death … we need hope as surely as we need food and water, love and friendship. The trick, however, is to remember that hope is a perilous thing, that it's not a steel and concrete bridge across the void between this moment and a brighter future. Hope is no stronger than tremulous beads of dew strung on a filament of spider web, and it alone can't long support the terrible weight of an anguished mind and a tortured heart - T.G.S.R. ( no idea who the hell or what the hell is T.G.S.R. )

Manchester United are the Champions

The primere league went down the wire, and congrats to manchester united for retaining the title. Real and Man Utd really are intertwined. My leeds united made the 2nd last playoff spot too despite a 15 point deduction :D.

Too bad it was never meant to be. Live life without regrets. It still holds

Monday soccer blues

Lost 2-0 to RJ today, haha, now we dont even have a chance in theory to qualify. They played better, period. Came on for 35 mins, but i think i played like crap. Stamina was non-existant, i think partly due to the flu i had over the weekends, and am still having now, was panting like a dog after 5 mins. Madness, considering i can run 2.4 in 9 minutes flat, and gone through the ACS(I) game in the blazing heat without too much fatigue. Ah well, think this is highly probable to be my last game in NY colours. I had a decent run, haha 28 games if my memory didnt fail me, 1 goal. Some RJ guy stepped on my ankle while i tackled him just now, its swelling now, was damn pain. Subsided a little. The bus took AYE then the CTE to bring us home, instead of the usual PIE then CTE route.

Seeing NUS, was somehow reminded about LTC and the fun we had there. Missed those times man, missed the people, missed the lessons, the torture. It also made me realise how little i had seen of the western part of singapore, i've been the the central ( i live there ), south ( orchad road and stuff ) and east ( chalets etc ). but seldom head to the west. Post A levels, i think i am gonna organise a round island jogging trip or something. Any takers?.

Have maths test tomorrow. My poorest subject. Hope to do well this time. the topics dont seem so difficult.

I still dont have people to accompany me if i wanna go for the NY concert. ANYONE INTERESTED? Is it too much to ask, for you people to appreciate classical muic in a sense. Wonders what the class did for PE after they passed NAPFA. I wanna watch Ironman, and i still havent watched forbidden kingdom )=

Its depressing see-ing people breakup around me recently. How did something which seemed so perfect fall out of place. Sometimes, it makes me wonder, do you have THAT sort of care for me? Did anyone ever have? I'll sort it out i swear, ariel did fall for eric after all. ( i think almost none of you can figure this out =) )

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more. - Erica Jong

A cool blue saturday night

Its saturday night, and i am sitting in front of my computer chatting to a couple of people online and playing fm. It is a sucky existance. So many things i want to do, but cant. Today, looked at the poeple going up on stage to receive awards for college day. I want to be up there, for i think my capabilities are more than matching that of most of the people up there. I want to be up there, i deserve to be up there. I know this smacks of arrogance, elitism, overconfidence, or just plain stupidity but so be it. This is my blog and i am allowed to express my feelings. Parents meeting went well. My dad probably have gotten used to meeting my teacher year in year out. He trusts that i'll deliver when the time comes, ie. A levels. I hope for his and my sake that it'll hold true. Mr pun wants 3 As from me for the A levels, and minimum 3 Cs for the mid years. We shall see about that.

Have no idea why i am feeling very empty/ mentally drained/ tired now. Gahh. Wish i could have something to scream at now, or sit under the stars at some beach and stone the night away, or go to a street soccer court and wack some balls under the stars. So many wants, but there is nothing to do about it. I am not one prone to such episodes of downess, so cant dig out the source of it. If any of you can, please tell me so.

I feel as if my soul has been laid bare, and my body is lacking the essence of life.
As if my spirit is ripped from this shell of a living being.
As if the natural order of things arent seeming so.
I feel as if i am cast into a pit with clawing up the sides all but impossible.
The sun is all blotted up yet the moon is nowwhere in sight.
As if my feelings are in a state of helpless narcosis.
As if my mind is losing its lucidity.
My heart is in a violent throe with no signs of abating.
I feel my strength leave, depositing an empty corpse among the waves of reality.
As if my being is crying, but for the lack of tears.
As if a burden is tearing every last breath out of my lungs.
Conciousness is slipping, to be replaced by a everlasting void.
Someone lost in a feeble existance with the light at the end snuffed out.
A hollow, devoid of life.
A human, brought mercilessly down onto his knees by fate.
There is nothing to do, is there?
Would anyone listen, would anyone care?

I abhor emotions. Crappy, Screwed up.
It'll pass. Ignore me.

Love suffers long, and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.... And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. - The Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:4 - 8 (New King James Version) and an alternative "take"

Personal lackings

Awhile ago, while waiting for my dawdling printer to churn out my maths remedial notes for some quick reference to the stuff taught in J1, i took out my 'little oxford dictionary' from my bookself and started erm taking a peek into its contents... only to find out how limited my range of vocabulary is. Out of the 37 words ( incuding the explanations for A and a ) on page one of the dictionary. I swear that i ahev never encountered like 7 of them. ( aardvark, abaft, abase, abeyance, abjure, ablution, abnegate ). Feel free to check out the meanings if u want. Gotta brush up on my language/ vocab/ expression ability if i even wanna get that distinction ( or even a B ) for GP, considering that i WILL NOT go and memorise the contents of the lecture notes given out during GP lectures, :P sry HH, not my style.

Time is dwindling
the rallying call grows louder
but wait, a lull in the trumpetting takes hold
now is not the time

Me and Blog

OK, hi people. seriously i have no idea who will be reading this but here goes. Never thought i would create a blog ( actually i didnt ) or post in one. Upon the persistent requests from ykm for me to have a blog, lol and with his considerable assistance this blog was born. Hmm lets get one thing about this blog straght, actually a couple of things rather

1) I will post only when and if i feel like it no point writing for the sake of writing. So, posting will be quite erractic, sry to disappoint anyone out there hoping for regular updates.

2) There will be zero posts on my private life, e.g. my family, my friends, what i did yesterday that sort of stuff. class outings, maybe.. if there is a demand for it. This is for privacy reasons, and to avoid sensitive issues from arising, and cases of accidently washing your dirty linen in public.

3) School stuff would also be at a minimum ( dont you guys/girls already have enough of school? an average of 35hrs a week is pretty high by my standards already so yup ).

To end off my 1st post. hope you guys find this blog interesting entertaining, and enjoy reading it.